Emotionless eyes that have the colour of wind, looking in mine...killing me from inside.
Why do I feel so tired all the time?
Seeing everything you do, being blind.

Fearing your unstable mind, destroying mine.
Whispering in my ears: 'Deny'.
The grief oh the grief...comes and goes flood tide.

Going insane, stuck in an endless cycle, trying to get outside.
Going through my anguished brain, anger...hate...indifference...taking over, leaving sorrow behind.
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                                                  *Ş.Ü

Does beauty breathe inside a deer whose grandeur follows
Each incidental awkward step, each joyful stride,
Or does it shine through canvas, rich in vibrant colors,
That praises creature’s forceful stance, exquisite pride?

Does beauty speak in tongue of natural emotion,
In simple words of soul unclouded and sincere,
Or does it dwell within a verse, precise and cautious,
Its voice revised to flatter every pair of ears?

Can someone reach indeed the heights of pristine perfect
Adopting vanity, despisal for the flaw,
Or would he rive his roots, deliberately orphaned,
Rejecting beauty that was always his to own?

Not sounding dulcet lie a song sparks flame of sences,
But its allegiance to the truth of life pretenseless.

Out and about
random memories pop in my head
I just wander, feeling defeated

Trying to relax
sometimes I become distracted
by misty thoughts, thick like clouds

I become proud as my mind becomes silent
And walk away

Feeling the comfort and security
That nobody's thinking about me

You feel for the bad me
The one that smoked , skipped school
Gave up on her dreams
Gave up on herself
It may just be a coincidence
But why leave when I wanna be better ?
Why not stay to see
What I can become
We can become ?

We never got here.

I wanna go somewhere
Anywhere but here
Anywhere you’re near
Somewhere I can have no fear
Just the two of us so I wouldn’t have to share
I caught feelings thats why I’m on my way to you
Catching flights because I care

The spirit is willing to hear your every word
But my body says, this is right now, absurd
For sleep comes welcome to the weary worn
But I have made a covenant that will not be torn
Give me strength Lord for my lids are as stone
Give me light for my sight grows dim
Give me your promise I won’t go through life alone
Give me your heart afire from within
The struggle is real Lord and the fight is long
The spirit remains, but strength is gone
Tomorrow is a new day full of promise and vigor
And I’ll be there with strength and a heart that is bigger