You are silent and so am I
You think you've been let down
And so do I

The truth however is
We both scared to risk it all
We both don't know what's to become
If we just let go of our bubble and
Float back to the ground!

The emptiness has come back to haunt me
I can sense it nearing me
Catching up with me
I know what it did to me last time

Lord I run to you this time
And I ask you to hold me in your fold
Shelter me from this vicious grip
The feeling of being wanted
The need so deep within

Those cruel words now haunt me
Hurtful, sharp words that cut my soul
I never forget how alone I felt
Faltering and tripping in my own lost world
Angry and defensive and clawing around
Wanting to stop the agony and pain

Funny how people judge you
Funny how you need to wear a mask to look normal
Funny how you need to pretend at all times
When inside you are breaking down.

This time I’ll fight back
Cause I know your game
You can’t play me twice
and think it’s a simple game.

I know your tricks
I know your trade
I know you weapons
I know your gaze!

I am wearing my armour now
Armour of peace and calm
Ruffle me with your storm
Toss me around your charm

It’s not going to work
You might as well accept
Your words will not have any effect
Cause I don’t subscribe
To your measurement of me!
For inwardly you see
I am in love with me!

How I struggle each moment
to live life without you
Since u have shut the door on me
Life’s barren twist I see

The road ahead is long and deary
And my strength fades faster
Every scratch of sanity I hang on to
Hoping praying today’s not my last!

I don’t want to give up
But I can’t face another day
When memories of our togetherness
Haunt me everyday.

Your smile, your twinkling eyes
You is what I long for
The spaces between my fingers
Want to feel you near
To feel your heart beating
Close to mine.

Try as much I, to push u away
You are always in my thoughts
I realize, I love you with every
fibre of my being
And even if that is not enough
My heart I will place at your feet.