Blooms symmetrical
Petals from a rose
I held you in my hands too tight
You only felt my blood
Spindly spiral thorns
It was your skin
I held so close to my chest
And my heart

I bleed
I see rivers raging
As a river flows from me
And even my hands can't staunch the pain

Now
What was the past?
Only a beauty besieged by time
Unspeakable crime
Now
What will I be now?
I only have my feet
I only have the next step I will take

In a world full of pavement

The flower doesn't grow from concrete
Still at the stoplights in the street
I read your name
And love you still
The flower doesn't grow from concrete
But all these sidewalks
I see your face
And love you still
The flower doesn't grow
From concrete
These parking lots
Where I got lost

Never to feel your spiny thorns again
Never to really feel
Never to bleed
Never to love

I used to bleed
And it made me happy

The ghost that I'll become
Is covered in scars
Skin is skin and without skin
The ghost that I'll become
Is covered in scars
From the times before
I can't forgive myself
I don't expect you'll forgive me
As my bones and hands
Break in this world
And every scar
Is a mark upon my soul
I don't have to live forever
To never forget
I'm dying now
And bringing it with me

I
Am
The greatest lover of all time
I
Reach
In a way that you will feel

No matter distance
Not important any preconceived notions
Or money of nations
Or boundaries were taught as children

I
Am
A citizen of every nation
I
Speak
Every tongue known to man

But it will mean nothing
Not a thing
Abysmal darkness
If you won't speak to me

The way my hands can touch you
I smile
Because you've never felt before
I bring you more
The way my words can touch you
I'm a lover
And I keep on loving
When all the love has gone

A hand lifts you up
Whenever the darkness growing becomes a pool you drown in
Even in your pain and fear
You feel angelic hands
Touching the very deepest part of you
A hand of fated love
To give you hope

In the sorrow of your sobbing
You can still hear a beautiful song
Keeping you alive


A hand you hold in the morning
After its laid sweet dreams over your nightmares
Pushing forward
Healing heartache
Caressing your satin skin with delicate fingers
Putting the stars in your eyes
You live again and again and want to live some more
Just to feel this love

Your mind at peace
An angels heart beat
Pumping blood through your veins
Fortitude
You laugh at the pain
And await your next dream
About dancing naked in the rain

*In the sorrow of your night
You can still see these angels hands
Holding the morning

I could never write a poem as beautiful as you are to me
Nothing man-made
Nothing in nature
Nothing can ever be

And if the universe should have an end
Maybe I'll find you there
I'm too numb to feel this pain
I'm too young to feel this hopeless

So I sit with my back to the wall and my head in my hands
Knowing about nightfall
Thunderstorms
And black holes
I could never write a happy ending

There was always blood in poetry
But blood without a heartbeat
Is seeing something die

There were always stars in the sky
But if no one can speak their meaning
Its only endless night

I am a heartbeat
The meaning in the stars
I am the heartbeat in the meaning of the stars

What I feel
And what I say
Are the same
Please disregard the way I act

Its much more complicated than that

Because I act like I don't love you
But the honest truth is
I do

I watch the wheels go off the rails
My minds a train wreck
Never reaching destination
And all the while a sensation
That this is all okay

The crazy loco motion
The westward expansion
The cruel and inhumane conditions
And utter condescension
That this is all okay

Still if you find that you've made it California way
You've got it made
There's gold in them hills
And that helps me feel
That this is all okay

The king is dead
Long live the king
In colorful courtyards
With maidens fair
Wearing flowers in their hair

The king is dead
Long live the king
May his castle hold his memory
May his ghost long roam the corridors
May his army still fight in his name

The king is dead
Long live the king
Ruling by divine order
And loyal subjects see beneficence
Reverent remembrance

The king is dead
Long live the king
That his royal decrees
The rule of the land
Be forever upheld

In honor
In his image
In his name
The king is dead
Long live the king!

They took my crown
And threw it off a ledge
I was already on the edge
The king is falling

Rooks and pawns
Pieces on a chessboard
The seeds of discord
Until I have to doubt myself

Until I have to find myself
By rumor or theme
It's just another scheme
Directed by the queen

The king is falling

Rings around the head are not a halo
Its all illusion
A planet of confusion
I hold back my wreaking havoc

I love Despina
I'll do anything to set her free
From the gravity
Of her tragedy

A girl with a halo is not an angel
Im standing on the furthest moon
Aiming for neptune
Im singing songs by psychic pisces feeling pain

I love Galatea
I would gladly die for her
She'll turn my blood into a river
My spirit immortal

An angel without wings is my protector
She cannot fly to me
But I feel her touch
And every bomb I drop

I love Thalassa
I am happy to drown in her spirit of the sea
I know its only the winds
Which make her not be at peace

Just one look
Is all it takes
And I'll go
Up
In flames
Just one word
I'll die for

And my soul mate
Joan d'arc at the stake
*******
While hands from the sky
Rip me open

And maybe it hurts
But I never felt before
And I never felt more
Never was I really sure
The way that I know now

It took dying
To help me know I was alive

Just one dream
Is all I need
And you can
Shoot me through my
Heart
Just one thought
I'll die for

My brother in ages
Nathaniel Hale you still live on
The war you fought still wages
My greatest regret
Is that I have but one life
To give
For my love

And maybe it hurts
But it feels like heaven
To know my pain
Gives the one I love
Pleasure

The way that I know now

This gray cloud
With no silver lining
Blocks out the sun
Leaving just enough light
For me to see the mess I've made

This gray cloud
I never could hold
And never have
Leaving me without you
Remembering the love we made

This gray cloud
A women in black
The love we had
The love we lost
And all the mess we made

A million other peoples minds
From in my room
On my chair
At my desk
In my head
I try to see the highway
On the other side of town
And imagine where it goes
And imagine who is going

A million other people minds
Maybe there's a solution to be found
Whether brown eyes or green
When the mirror is seen
Its should show more
Than just my reflection
It should show me the world
A million other peoples dreams

The moon must cry when he sees you
The moon as the king of the night
To see your feet
Stepping further into the dark
The stars shine brighter for you
Burning with every inch of might
To bring you light
As you are passing through the gloaming

I cry with the moon
I know your beauty was meant for the day
But summer's setting sun
falls heavy on your soul

The moon must cry when he sees you
Falling back into the black
The surrounding of pain undistilled
As you lose the hope you held
The stars burn brighter for you
Giving every cosmic strength
To show you love
As you know I do like I was born for a reason

I cry with the moon
And surrender all my fate
I live to be the sunrise
Your skin is my name

Pizarro

And there he lay dying
In a pool of his own blood
He drew a symbol of the cross
alabanza a usted, el quien es dios, jesucristo

So far away from home
With brothers at his side
A lust for gold
A taste of blood

He came flying off the water
He went marching through the mire
One hundred and sixty faithful men
Fighting an empire

So far away from home
With brothers at his side
A lust for gold
A taste of blood

My next poem
Will be a masterpiece
Enough to please the mind
And the soul
The next poem
That I set down in concrete
To last throughout the ages
Will last throughout the ages

It will speak
Not only to your heart
But to your soul
To every better part of you
To your reality
To your dreams
Speaking loud above the muddle
The average trying to be heard

But that's my next poem
Not this one
I'm still only building to
This is only practice

My next poem
So utterly true and profound
It will change the world
Will change your world

And each step in the past led me here
Crossroads between what was and what will be
Becoming my greatest fear and greatest hope
My brightest nights and my darkest days?

And with each step I carried with me
A cross for my own crusifiction
An overwhelming burden on my shoulders
Dragging and drifting and dividing myself

I can envision a beacon of light
It sits at both ends of a dark tunnel
So how can I be ever be sure
Which blinding light to follow?

The next step I take, will be the first one after I let it go
But in which direction must I walk
I can either follow the sun as it crosses horizons
Or follow the moon which brings me the stars?

The ocean is not as deep
As you think it is

Its only as deep
As you think it is

Your eyes as I have always seen them                              l
More beautiful in reality than the way I dream them              y
Your eyes are oceans of endless beauty              a                  
Your eyes; ocean            i                                               ­           r    
Your skin; beach                                    y                       o                  L
Your hair; stars                         M
Your smile; moon                                             i
Your love a night watching the tide roll in            g                              
                   ­                                          D                                                                ­      
And I'm a lonely sailor             a
Storms are raging brought in by your horizons                l                        
Brutal thunderous squalls                                  n
Walls of water fall as rain                      L                      y
Tears to drown us all
                                                         f
Your eyes as I believe them                              A
More astounding than any scene from imagination
Your eyes are oceans of endless feeling
Your eyes; ocean
Your words; wind
Your heart; seagulls
Your soul; capsizing ships              
Your love a night watching the tide roll out

                       ---OCEAN AIR SUBDUE---

Your eyes are my demise              
My death is your ocean floor
Your seas are angry currents
Painful waves thrashing into rocks
And crushing my very soul

The ocean is not deep
Its not a beating heart
In your chest as you sleep
As you dream

The ocean is not peace
Its hammerhead sharks
That want to eat
As I swim

But its a river in my mouth
A river of life
The transitory nature of water
You can't step in the same river twice

The ocean in not deep
A game of inches and trenches
A rock on the sea floor
And islands

The ocean is not love
It is continual struggle
Swordfish and coral reef
Beauty and disbelief

But its a river in my mouth
Flowing down hill
The path of least resistance
Reaches your heart

The ocean is not deep
A rock in a current
Soaked and worn by bitter tides
And big fish

The ocean is not truth
A rock has always been wet
Lustful for a starfish
A sea horse rides away

The ocean is not deep
There is not an ocean
Prolific Pacific or tragic Atlantic
I can't walk across

Still its a river in my mouth
You on a shore
Cupping your hands
And drinking

Drink
My love
Drink until your drunk
Drink the river in my mouth

I don't need friends
Jeoulosy invites envy
And weight can be so much to bare
Without carrying you on my coat tails

Bombs for the bombastic
I'm dropping all I can
Because my hands
Don't want to hold on

The only peaceful end to war
Is when everyone is dead
And I'm still standing

I have been censored
Censured
Left to let this rotten fruit destroy the garden
afraid to speak my truth for some delicate sensibilities

Bullets without guns
I've loaded up on ammo
And taken names
Wars will rage with or without me

But how does the war end?

The only peaceful end to war
Is when nations are destroyed
And I'm still standing

Then there are the others
The ones who can speak clearly
Still feeling deeply
And all the while maintaining sanity
When walking the razors edge of lunacy
The ones who are mad
Laughing in the face of danger
And fear
And loss
And pain
And seeing even in loss
The something that's gained
The lesson better learned and never forgotten
Glory be to the others!
Because with each trap
They don't fall in
There is a torch being advanced
And more light to combat the darkness
Those blessed others
Who know at least as much
Or more
Or all
Or truth
And see the ultimate goal
Without distraction

well,
This wasn't composed for youthful souls
But rather the old ones
The ones who have seen it all
And will continue to see
Despite the agony
Despite defeat
Or pain
Or fear
Or worse than death
A loss of feeling

I wrote this from my soul
So I don't expect you to understand
I wrote this for the others

if you don't know by now
Who I'm talking about
Just look to the past
They're names are littered through history
And others exist today
They are the ones who will hear me
You may know them by a craft

The others will always create art

Its not so far away
Man made nature
Water colors
Artificial suns
Apartments
The loving arms of hell
I had forgotten the way the waves crash on the shore
Of the outer banks

I live in cities
All the life around me
Is only death

I took a rorshak test
And saw fire
Armies marching
Tinted windows
Kevlar vest
And bullet proof glass
I want to go somewhere again
Where the nature isn't addicted to chemicals

Its not so far away

Where I can watch the crane fly
Over the most tranquil waters
Of my mind

When a stream is blocked
The water will find a different route
To meet the river
And become the ocean

A lesson we don't understand

I'd like to forget
          The places I have slept
                     Before
But....
There is a way
            The things you've seen become
                      Who you are

I don't feel the pain anymore
But I still bare the scars
I carry them with me where ever I go
And my hands are empty

I haven't left this parking lot for three whole days
I'm leaving now
Leaving part of me there

I'd like to forget
           The places I have slept
                      Before
But.....

The places can't forget me

How could learning how to let someone love you be so personal
When its like the rain?
Everyone feels it fall
But not everyone feels it the same

Some take no notice and move along
Some hear the rain falling on the roof as a song

Some see the lighting before it strikes
Some hear only thunder
But still others...

Some scurry for cover

And still others
Still there's others that dance

So howl at me wind if you would like
Bend the limbs of the trees that line the streets
Move swiftly as you must
Soft upon my skin
I've been waiting long before
The storm ever began

And I've been dancing ever since
I've been dancing

Life: too much
I can only wonder
If I am drowning
Because the mainstream
Is too shallow

There are oceans
At least I'm sure
If I have never seen
There are oceans

Let my smile be a rifle
Let my hands become the sun
Let my feet become a carriage
Let my name become a song

Let my fame show now is gone
And is forever

Let my words

There are oceans

Continually blessed is her name
Creation, bright lights, and planted seeds
Illumination
Her fingers are some kind of sun

The Redeemer slays
Pray for those to be saved
No man shall be redeemed
In fevers heated dream

Forever burning in a heart
Fire, tindle, ash and cinder
Luminaries
Her sleep never leads me to dream

The redeemer slays
Away and any way my blood
Its a name because of her
Because of her it falls

Beethoven was a genius
                                                 I am sure
Today he would have starved as I do

But he would have made music still

(Part 2)

Beethoven was a genius
                                            Today he'd be poor  
The richest musician right now is Madonna

And its the ultimate statemant I can make

(Part 3)

Music is devolving
                                                                               Poetry is too
Any pauper with a pen could write the red wheelbarrow

(Part 4)

So don't you ever
Not now
No
Stop
If your argument says his name
Not now
No
Not

(Part 5)

Life is complicated
Art imitates life
If a poem is simple

I have news for you

The river is polluted
The skies are grey in falling night
The stars are hidden from our sight
Constellations convoluted

Bilge water and bile
Corrupted hearts so vile
Defile of a sacred form
This is not divine
Only desecration

The river is polluted
The seeds we plant do not survive
And even life is doomed to die
The trees are all uprooted

          We want the leaves
          We want the flowers
          We want the scent of the forest

The river is polluted
Our dismay is all man-made
Unwholesome branch that holds no shade
Our hope for shelter all eluted

Brackish is the water
Swim if you care to drown
We take giant gulps
Deluded with hope
And still we die of thirst

I am

Heavy noises crash into me
the rocks below
Heavy heavy sound
We can’t see you
I am
And there is no corner nor quarter
the rocks below

Openly the fields
the meadows
the heavy ending
And I pray
Jubilation
Through this white noise
Evil the empire
That freed us

Heavy the hand that feeds us
Denies us just to need us
heavy, deaf, and blind
She’s yours to take home
And sorrow in blood
is my own

My own the seas
the oceans and shores
Water crashing in
wasn’t fair at all
Take away the sand
as all I know
Closing my eyes
Avoid the slaughter

Heaven descend
as I forgive
  One could never understand
the rocks below
  I am
  It’s heavy in my blood
  Magnetic molecules
and memory
The rocks below

Break apart the waves
and terminate the fall
The pain that’s left to feel
wasn’t fair at all
Hallelujah
heavy as it was
it isn’t ours to judge
The rocks below


I am

And i could never be
Even clouds have faces
As faces have names
And they chant and proclaim
Hallelujah
It wasn’t fair at all
But not a victim
to the fall
The rocks below
Exclaimed hallelujah
Hallelujah

I am

The muse is the self
I just want to say something meaningful
Something to reach someone else
Something inspirational
The ambitions of the artist is the ego
I want to be admired as the best
Something I can claim
Something I can be proud of

How can I forget my pride?
And fulfill my duty to the work

I'm just a man

I dive deep
My blood, my bones, my flesh,
Mind is swimming
I reach the bottom of the ocean


And it should be fantastical
A whale is so huge
I could walk through its heart
But my own heart?

I see a shallow ocean
Tides that follow their path
And never once consider
Changing course

And it should be fascinating
Schools of fish, and shoals of fish
With instinct over memory
But my memory?

All I remember
Is that sharks smell blood in water

Death is an amerous being
Whose arms only want to hold you
The sky in Ohio is gray
Deny
Refute his claim
His conquering of your flesh
His irascible nature incurable
That your not ready to join him
In whatever darkness is his aim
His joy
His lonely and greedy demands
His need for fossils
Keep your light
Give your life
When the time is right
The sky in Ohio is gray

You have a chance
Take it and run
Away from his hateful clutch

No freeing me when im caught up
Not broken bones nor gelded wings
We've forgotten about a thing
And once flying high
We fall so far

Would you be there in the slaughter?
Could you be there when the demons raze?
And all I say is emptiness
And my mind turns low
Don't cry for me
As its time
And the only thing that shows
Are the lights won't glow
And no one knows

No saving me when im martyred
An unexpected consequence
Of living life and seeing light
what you believe in
And dying in ways unnoticed

Would you be there in the slaughter?
Could you be there when the sword cuts deep?
When all my blood is memory
As my heart turns stone
A complete unknown
Under skies
And the only thing that's real
Are these crumbling walls
And the pain we feel

I'll know your face
A life
away

She didn't fall in love with me
But with the song I sing
My life is a prime example
Of how talent and creativity
Don't matter without ambition
She fell in love with me
Because of the song I sing
When I don't want to smile
And I don't want to laugh
I still sing a song a lover understands
She didn't fall in love with me
She fell in love with the song I sing

But my concert had an intermission
I returned to the stage
And she was gone

She fell in love with the song I sing
And I can't sing anymore

Awaiting divine intervention
The play reached its intermission
Nuclear fission and friction
Gods kitchen
And we can all go hungry

The stars shine without reason

Still I thought that I should mention
Screaming so loud no one listens
Peace in bitter condescension
A beautiful fiction
And we can all believe it

We can all bleed the same

We are strokes caused by lesions
On the brain
Of the singular concience

There is only one mind
And its sorry all the time

Its sorry in any dimension

Don't the seasons end in spring?
The time we use to sew our seeds
The tree we used to know won't grow
Not how we tear at the roots out
But I wish the flowers bloom
The way that May moves into June

The wisdom of the mob
The wisdom of our God
And as the city is burning
The city is burning
You help me know the world is turning
The world is still turning

Don't you make the star shine?
It was written on our skin before
The heartline
And even in the dark times
The midnights without moons
The twilights
Don't you make the stars shine?
The stars shine

Don't the days all go away?
The graceless hours
We deny the history of the sun
And paint it over with a advertisement
But I still wish the sun would rise
And bring the light that shines within your eyes
Into our lives

The love of the mob
The love of our God
Who set the cities to burning
Cities are burning
But our hearts and minds are burning to
I burn for you

Don't you make the star shine?
The unknown and uncharted
The beyond time
The bloodlines and mankind
Every step we've taken
And even when we fly
Don't you make the stars shine
Just so much brighter

A commitment that is enduring
Can move mountains
What we have
Will survive the changing of the seasons
The winds of change may blow and try
But I stand still
This constancy of heart
This perseverance in what is right

One must be careful before committing
Afterwards, they must continue

We meet
You love me
I love you more than the moon loves the sea
We become like the seasons
You can be spring
With its budding cherry blossoms
I will fall
And you behold the color of my world
I love you like the people
I love like machines

We fight
And you let go
I hold on
Until my fingers lose their feeling
And I can't see its gone
The rivers and tides are seperate
Its all water
But the more that I follow
The more that I'm pulled under
I grasp for breath and fill my lungs
Finally I drown

We make up
You want to be again
But if it matters now
It mattered then
When I was gasping for breath
It mattered then
When it was nothing to you
Then this is empty to me
I can love you
But it can never be love it was before

After the sun reaches the highest point in the sky
I think its best that I should leave
When what I'm holding onto now
Is the better part of me

I will cry because the sun is setting
The advance of age
A fire catching
I used paper as the kindling
Its a fire out of control
It burns us all
Heart and soul
It burns us all into the ash
I should sing to you my setting sun
But inky tears will fall
A lonesome sob
I could beat upon an instrument
A drum of earthenware
But its only brittle dirt
Its only dust
Becoming us

I cannot sing
My empty soul
But I can hope
My tears are music to your ears
I cannot sing the pain I feel
The pain that's real
From loving you
From touching every part of you
My sighs melodious
My laments significant
My hopes through all my fears
The sun only sets to rise

Let the sun rise again
Let it rise over us
Let it be the light
Let it break this darkness

If I ever dance
It will be alone
I'll have a shadow I see a face in
And a ghost that I become
It will never rain
And the eyes will always be blue

The clouds are weapons of war
Casting calloused fingers onto the skin of my feet
I cannot walk
I'll run away
Hiding behind the corners as the clowns decry my name
I won't know how to feel
I don't know what to say
The only thing I ever wanted
Are the things you wanted yesterday

Snipers on the tower of Babel
Aiming at the dawn
I'm afraid
We don't speak the same language
Anymore

Lyrically biblical
Pathetically prophetic
Hymns, and psalms, and
Parables
Plots, and graves, and
Funerals

He cries on the top of the minaret
We all start to pray
I'm afraid
There's no god left to hear us
Anymore

The trees are at war
They speak in signals unidentified by man
That if you are a flower
You understand

The trees are at war
And all the roots connected underground
They communicate
They know your here

The trees are at war
Because we as man can have a small  axe
And chop them down
As we've done many times before

The trees are at war
Chemical and biological
Pollen in the air
Their budding the leaves of chaos

The trees are at war
And at all times they conspire
They only really want
To deprive us of oxygen

Imagine falling
Take the full scope of your mind
Images only
Because while I dream I still feel pain

Imagine falling
When your already on the ground
Still falling even more
Past the fault lines and the caverns

And the mines
Where we find diamond veins
But still bring canaries
Because of all the toxic air

Imagine falling
And leave the world you know behind
Falling until you reach
The torturous pits that we call hell

The way I fall
I break every single bone
I break the ground
And I break my faith in everything

The way I fall
I find nothing to believe in
But I still believe
Because I know I have to

Fire is the sun and the moon
These dusty fields and broken streets I walk through
Fire is everyday and every word
And I am ashes
Ashes
Spread amongst the purslain
And the charging ocean winds
The vestigial glint of hope
I am ashes
Now
A ceremony
As ashes fall into place
I have to die
To be reborn

Oh
How have I died?
Only in your eyes and in your arms
I was burning with the rage of bullets
And pin-struck amorous lighting
A thousand needles
Each speaking the name of the flame
And stubbornly stabbing
My mind ablaze in torrid heat
How have I died?

Only in whatever way I had to

I am ashes
Falling slowly from the life I used to have
When all was fire
And I was cinder
I am ashes
Formulating in unexplained definitions
Where love is death and birth
The let of knowing holding on
And no wind could tarry me assunder

I am ashes
From a life before
A living heartbeat
And belief
I am ashes
Falling into place
Every little part of me
Who I was
And who I'll be

New seeds taking hold
I saw it
With the wild thought that I controlled
Better to know
I know forever
A wildfire can not be contained

I loved you as a sailor loves the sea
I'll gladly spend a life on
And the loneliness of empty water
The teachery and disease

I loved you enough
That it would hurt me
When I saw what I saw
Decisions the hinges of destiny
I loved you too much
That I act like a fool
When I know that what is now
Is not how it should be


And I dont expect you to forgive me

I loved you so much
That I'll keep on loving you
If you never do

If I could ask god one question
That he grant me, all of humanity one favor
It would have to be
That things always appear to be
The way they actually are

And I'm casting shadows in the dark
Closing my eyes and throwing darts
Wishing on stars
And my silent thoughts are loud

Things don't always appear
The way they actually are
I wish I didn't believe the way they seem