There were nights inside these walls I sleep in tears
Questioning why am I living, for what do I exist?
They say all I am is not what should it be
Who I am is wrong and I cannot be freed

I lay myself crying again behind these walls
They keep pushing me on trying, they wanted me to be like all
Helplessly I pretended that I am standing on their side
But I cannot be happy, I am turning black and white

I struggled to be like them and I was caught in the middle
I have been pushed, bullied and I found my self little
I am not like who they are and I know I will never be
Why they cannot it understand? Why they cannot see?

I started to live my life alone, away from creatures called people
They always make everything complicated when at the first place it's just simple
I hide myself away in obscure place where no one will find
Where I will be safe and no expectations that I will mind

I grew numb about hatred, being an outcast, and about pain
I'm living my life in silence and being nonchalant - I am trained
I walk alone by myself and I didn't even care
Better be off alone than with someone who won't even stay

They tortured me, they punished me not in my flesh but deep inside
Not using a knife nor a needle work but it can diminish a life
My soul is really hurt and they're leaving me half-heartedly
Their fatal words were lingering,I am bleeding unendingly

Why they are all treating me like I was never ever been belonged?
Is it 'cause I'm living differently and I am never like them at all?
How come I became any less when I am capable of doing more?
They're judging me based on their ignorance, they're judging me on what they do not know

I suffered, I have been bruised and yes, I cried
And yet these walls remain silent standing right at my side
It became my witness of all my heartbreaks, of how my tears burned me
It listened on my inner madness, it saved every pieces of me

Like these walls I'll be standing tough and high
I'll be strong, you won't hear any from me, you'll never see me die
I'll stay colored, graceful and I will make you realize
I am the most beautiful, my days will be immortalized

I may be destroyed, manipulated, grew up confused
I am who I am, to stay the same I will choose
I can show you I can be the greatest, and everyone will be amused
You can insist that I should be someone else, but I'll fight, I'll refuse.

We have been together for such a long time 
Same feelings for each other, forever you are mine 
We've talked so much of our tomorrows, and we just don't care 
But all those dreams must be in secret, all mustn't be shared 
 
We've gone now so far, and been to many places 
We're making more memories, painting smiles on our faces 
We're now happily living, not thinking what may be after 
But we're too young to worry, so we just turned it into laughters
 
But how come we can be both serious and still we dwell inside 
I'm loving you, you're loving me, and still we must have it to hide 
How long will it going to be? Will be making it last?  
Will our future be our eternity? Or everything will become our past?  
 
I never felt wrong, in every seconds that I'm with you 
You always make me feel safe, every moment I'm close to you 
I never felt so empty, never felt any less 
Every time I look into your eyes I always feel blessed 
 
I know this ain't bad, the feelings that we have 
But we have to keep it in silent, and it made me feel so sad 
We have to hold it on ourselves, we can't let anyone see 
But don't forget how we love each other, how much I'm missing thee  
 
But how come we can be both so sincere and still we dwell inside 
You're loving me, I'm loving you, and still we must have it to hide 
Why we have to do this? Why do we have to be in this way? 
I hope that we could still be in forever and nothing will ever going to wane 
 
I know this is worth having, it's just we who can understand 
We don't have to explain anything, about us and who we are 
And soon maybe we can have it like what it has been before 
Living for our reality, and there's no reason for us to dream at all 
 
That there will be a day that I can be more proud, about me and you 
Though it may not be tomorrow, be assured I'll still love you.

Am I the rose? Or one of the thorns?
Can I be both? For that’s how I was born
Am I the sunshine? Or should be the rain?
Can I be that together? For there’s a rainbow in the end

Do you look like him? Or sometimes like her?
You’re so into him, and can live without her
Are you one of ‘him’? Or a part of greater ‘her’?
Living on both sides which sometimes you cannot bear

Can we be called the same when we felt so different?
We have the right to live, but to leave cause of their resentment
We keep on telling ourselves we are who we are
But sometimes ‘are’ has to be ‘were’, and change just for their arms

I tried to hide myself, but still I just can’t
Whenever I am in my best, they’re always there to comment
They always trying to put me down, or making fun of me
That’s their way of handling me, they’re questioning my reality

I just can’t defend myself, I know I can but maybe I’m just tired
My existence is like a game that I haven’t gone too far
Expecting any sort of disappointment, every night and day
Sometimes I have to sing these words, ‘baby I was born this way’

Acceptance is just a word, and sometimes can no longer be found
You feel so sorry that at times you just can’t hide your heart
You put your mask on, so no one will ever see
That you are a boy loving a guy, you’re afraid of enmity

This thing is a choice, they say, but inside of me it is not
There’s no man ever wished that he will be living in this life
Full of hatred, full of pain, full of agony and despair
You cry, you smile, but you still strive to be in fair

This is a tough world, and I should be a tough one
Withstand all the anguish, and don’t let them make my walls down
Please don’t get me wrong and talk as if you ever tried
How to love unconditionally, how to live in a different life

Oh yes! I am ‘pink’ at least I know I’m not fake
I know I am unique and this thing you cannot break
I am too much to conceive that you just can’t even take
Try to understand and there your soul will be awake

I do still have feelings, don’t judge where I should belong
I have all you have, and I have more, and that’s make you think I am wrong
I can do more of what you did, and start what you haven’t done
Being a survivor of this world, that’s how we measure a true man

Sometimes I am red, and most of the times I am blue
See, I am colorful and it is something that you cannot do
I have been burned and my wounds were the living proof that I survive
I’ll be fighting till I can make it, and my strength will be revived

I may be far away of being a real man
Or not enough to be a good son
But I’m still part of the brethren and of God’s plan
I’ll be the most beautiful flower, and I will not be gone

Am I the rose? Or one of the thorns?
Can I be both? For that’s how I was born
Whoever I may be, I know I’ll be proud of me, I will be strong, androgynously, with dignity
And there's no one can ever play the best part of me except me.

It’s been a long time since we lived together
Seems like everything is ours, seems like it’ll be forever
It’s been happy days when I am with you
The laughters we’ve shared, everything we’ve been through

Can’t compare to anything your being and yourself
Can’t compare the days we actually spent
Can’t live a day without trying to think of you
Still I can’t say the word ‘love’ without having the word ‘you’

Every time you smile, I smiled inside I am
Every time you frown, I want to feel your pain
I want to share everything, every joy with you
I want you to be my inspiration, it’s true

And now, it’s been days since you’ve been gone
I can’t feel your touch, can’t feel your warmth
And now I can’t see the way you look into my eyes
I just don’t feel the same, I don’t feel alright

For I love you, I loved you, I’ve been loving you so much
For I care, I cared and I still care about you a lot
Still dreaming the dream, I dreamt about you last night
It was all a perfect scene but in a sudden there’s no light

I am loving you... still you haven't known
Someone is loving you, someone with broken soul
He's looking through your eyes trying to tell you his inside
How he hated your eyes, how he hated your smile

But I am missing you now, I missed you a lot
Still I am hoping that we’ll going to be alright
‘Cause still I want to smile the way I smiled with you
Still I want to breathe the words ‘I love you’

It’s been a long time since we’ve known each other
Seems like everything is ending, seems like it isn’t for ever
It’s been lonely days since you move yourself away
The laughters we’ve shared, they all started to wane.

Bells of churches start to play
Clouds of rain start to pray
Lights are dying, promises are fading
Faces of friends will never wane

Courage and sorrow collides together
Because of someone who've hurt me forever
Never knowing how does it feels
Standing alone and nothing is real

You have shown me that I am afraid
But I will tell you, you're the one who's afraid
You are not true and I'm not like you
Don't ever tell me what I should see

Dig now and make me a grave
Where you want to put me
And will never see me
'Cause I know that's all you've wanted
To see me cry, to see me die

I let you soar far away from me
Leaving me hear amid the misery
Letting me fall into the grave you dug
Holding nothing but a very little spark

Looking at you so far away
You are free flying again and again
And now I wish that you will fall
Into the grave where you leave me alone

You will fall, you will fall
You must experience how to cry
You must experience the hurt
I've held here inside

You will fall...you must fall!
And see me here
I'm slowly fading
And I'm now unclear

Please watch the wind
As it goes by
And I'm so young to die
How could I let life passed me by

The fragments of my broken heart is not yet done
For still there's a misunderstanding you left undone
And still there's anguish you left behind

And for all the pain
You've put me through
It will all come back to you.

I'm living again the memory, living again in a lie
Seems I've been reminiscing it for century, I'm living again to die
Your face came to cross my mind and I'm hurting again inside
Still I can't be off of what you've given me, I can't go on with my life

You looked at me, I looked at you, in you I let my heart to fall
I looked at you, you looked away, you never tried to hear my call
You looked at me, I looked at you, I see your eyes captured my soul
I looked at you and now you're gone, I think I'm starting to lose my all

I close my eyes and lay in here to feel again your warmth
I close my eyes and feel the moment I actually held your hand
I remember the moments, that so many moments, we looked at each other's eyes
I've been wanting and struggling to tell you I love you but that was only on my mind

I'm trying my best to forget you and never to speak your name
I'm trying each way to undo the feeling but it's too strong to be gone in my way
I'm hating your self just to erase you but suddenly I remember your smile
I'm hating my self 'cause of still holding you and I'm starting again to cry

Though you're far away from me, though you're not here to stay
Your memory still remain in me, I'm always here to care
Though you're not feeling me and you never tried to look back
I'll be always here waiting for you, you'll always be a part of my life

I still have the pain in me, they say I shouldn't live like that
I've been struggling to **** the emotion, believing this ain't they called 'love'
Each day instead of moving on you go slowly deep inside my whole
Everything just keeps coming back and absolutely I have no control

I guess I'll have to leave it here, don't try to mend my heart
For still I will be living here and moving only a part of my mind
For I still have faith and I still believe that forever I can hold you close
I will be moving on half-heartedly, other half will still be yours.