have to remind myself my i'm not the things you call me
not weak for being exhausted
allowed to be hurt
allowed to feel
don't need to fight to just exist
but with you
i do
it's always something
i try to see your humanity
but i stopped loving you long ago
all i feel is cold now
there are things i hate you for
that i can not forgive
but i'm good at ignoring my feelings
thats the only way i have survived
i hate that its like this
but it is
i don't think we'll ever know each other
because you will never compromise
and i won't worship you
i'll respect you
but you won't respect me
and its that simple unfortunately
i hate it
i hate you
for hating me
you say you don't
but you despise me for not being complicit
for not being just like you
i'm sorry i guess
but not really
you're willing to hurt me to prove a point
and thats where you lose me
you're willing to hurt someone to be right
and i can't get behind that
i'm not sure anymore
just tired
and constantly belittled
and picked at
and pushed down
and held back
and blamed
for things i didn't do
and out of my control
cast as the object of your rage
the bane of your existence
everything you hate
my generation
and opposing beliefs
you just hate me
and won't admit it and it's tiring
if i pulled the same ****
you would ****** me in cold blood
and i know it
because you can't control your temper
how ironic
you always say i'm acting out
and being irrational
when you push me to my limit
but you're the one who can't handle reality
nothing will ever make you happy
so you make everyone else miserable
hope you're happy with that

It's 11:11
and for the first time
after a very long time
I'm wishing for myself
and not for you

now it's over
I was waiting

I didn't want anyone to notice

it was nobody's fault

I'm too nice
to everyone

kindness
synonym for weakness

being nice doesn't
make me feel safe

being nice doesn't
make me feel loved

nowhere to run

it's over
no more talking

all said and done
it's nobody's fault

I don't want to be nice anymore

don't ask me for favors

I don't want to talk
don't wait for my response

it's all his fault
let's not pretend

I want everyone to know

I'm not angry
I'm not bitter

I don't care anymore

believe me
I am moving on

She said "I'm falling in love."

I said "I'm falling apart."

The sun and moon sharing the sky
Their love radiating from opposite edges of life's greatest masterpiece