She was scared
Terrified
Only now did someone got her
Someone actually got her!
Her shock and paranoia
Traced on her hesitation
No, I'm not easy to read, she tried
Yeah, you are, he insisted
She looked away
Not wanting to give in
You're better than this,
You can do better, she inhaled

Everything feels foreign
*I don't know you anymore

I want
all
my secrets
**back.

Beauty comes from contrast, they said
I saw you, then, passing by me at the coffee shop
You were holding a book with one hand
Awkwardly fixing your backpack on your shoulder
You were one-strapping it, so attractive
Your hair looks like a bird's nest
You ordered a muffin, laughed a little at the barista
Ouch, that hurt
I should make you laugh that way
I got the courage to come up and say my name
All went well
But ended so badly
Stupid, stupid decisions I made
Days passed, months, years
I sat in the same chair at the coffee shop
In search of something beautiful
Wandering the dead-end streets
Only to find myself
Helplessly
Walking back to your eyes

You hurt me
in the most
beautiful ways

I don't ask for too much.
*You're just not willing to give anything.