I miss you
Almost too much

I crave your skin
Your lips
  Your touch

Body trembles
  Hips ******

Your taste
  Your scent
  
Entangled in lust.

Drunken euphoria
  With every caress
  
The essence of me
  Still on your breath.

Release my body
  But don't let go

You are my drug
  I release control

You consume me
  From above
   As below

Calm the rhapsody
  That is my soul

I was told today to drop dead
to go away because I am annoying
I went home, shut my bedroom door
and immediately started crying
I've been told these words before
you think they would be easier to hear
Yet every time those words are said
I am consumed by my biggest fears
My emotional scars re-open
revealing a vulnerable part of me I try so hard to hide
I'm taken back to seven years ago
when my only thoughts were of suicide
I don't mean to be annoying
I can't help who I am
I'm sorry I'm not good enough
but there is no way you will forgive me is there?
This is what happens when you care so much
you tend to get hurt
This is why I build up walls
because humans are the worst
So I sit here writing this poem
on my cold bathroom floor
Letting my tears fall down my face
as I try to mend my heart that you just broke

Should never be the biggest place of judgement.

Signals everywhere
Left turn here
Right turn there  
Wrong way
U turn not permitted
Green light go
Yellow slow
Red, stop  
STOP....
Signals everywhere
Everywhere but my mind, my heart
It does not show
Green light go
Yellow slow
And it definitely does not show
S
T
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**P