lots of thoughts,
but only has few words.

oh to be an illiterate writer,
a poet in silence.

daming alam//

habang sinusulat, nakaupo sa sofa sa sala, nag iisip.
bakit ganun?
sya pa rin?
ewan, palitan natin.

bakit nga ako nagsusulat?

san ba to nag simula?

siya kasi //

siya nanaman.

makwento ko lang sa inyo ang pinagdaanan ko noong isang taon at pitong buwang nakalipas.

ayos lang naman sana ako.

masyadong makulit, mapagbiro, maingay.
pero seryoso. //
di man halata pero, oo... kahit papaano.

siya naman,

masyadong madilim, yung tipong pag sa anime,
siya yung si senpai na di ka mapapansin kasi tahimik lang siya at gusto nya palaging mag isa...

pero gusto lang nya sana ng tamang taong makakasama.

doon ako pumasok sa buhay nya, dun ko ginulo ang mundong hindi ko sinasadyang wasakin.

kung dati rati'y screamo at ******* lang na musika ang bumabalot sa kanya,
nadagdagan yun ng matinding impact ng bunganga ko at malakas na halakhak.

kung dati rati'y mas matipid pa sya sa intsik ngumiti,
nakikita mo na syang humahalakhak na parang walang bukas...

****, that smile.

ACHIEVEMENT UNLOCKED.

di nagtagal, di na pinatagal at nagtagal naging tayo.

Ang saya, ang lungkot, nagagalit ako, ikaw,
naaawa, nasurpresa, nasaktan, bumalik sa dating tayo...

strangers.

na parang di lang nating namalayang naging tayo pala?

//

tama na.

malulungkot nanaman tayo nang wala sa oras.

wala nang oras para malungkot.

dahil kahit anong pilit mo, di na mababalik yung oras.

kung saan, naglalakad lang tayo sa daan, tawa nang tawa,

napapaluha na sa....

*CTRL + A + Delete

You are brave they say
yes, you are
but do they know how it feels to
try hard?
yes, I'm trying hard
very hard
to be brave on the outside
but do they know how it feels to be
crumbled from the inside?
to pretend everything will be fine
when you know it won't;
to become other's strength
when you know you lack it
do they know how it feels to try hard?
yes, I'm trying hard.

We're so ******* used
to being torn apart
by those we've loved
and given our heart.
Now, it's coming too close
to what we've barely saved
These buildings of stone
can't keep us safe
from loving each other
and these "little earthquakes"

Still devoted,
Still trying...
Yet, so much effort
and still left crying.
We talk it out
find a place
that we agree
and still feel safe
But, then we sleep
and morning calls
feelings change and
we lose it all.
Back to heartache
back to pain
if we 'talk' again
will it end the same?
I want to be your rock
I wanna be strong
My heart'll try forever
...if it'll last that long.

031510~4.35p