#narcissism poems on Hello Poetry

SiouxF Nov 2020

‘What’s wrong with you?’
Was the bane of my childhood.
Without waiting for my answer,
Accused
Judged
Found lacking
And sentenced
Without me even uttering a word in my defence
Other than protestations of unfairness and injustice,
All swept aside and ignored
For my voice carried no weight or import.
Then punished whether guilty or not.
And even now still hung, drawn and quartered without my side of the story being heard or even asked.
Judged
Found guilty
And sentenced
In absentia.
When what I need now is a supportive
‘What happened to you?’
With empathy
With compassion
And a gentle caring ear

#narcissism

Larissa Frost Nov 2020

Boundaries

Set the boundaries
Ease the pain
Life will go
Much better they say
Easier said than
Put into place
Cause when I did
His hands rose to
My face.

-L.Frost

“They” have never lived
with a narcissist.

#narcissist #narcissisticabuse #emotionalabuse #narcissism #gaslighting #toxicrelationships #sociopath #narcissisticabusesurvivor

Zadkiel Oct 2020

The Trashiest of All Trash

O' brother
    Today is the anniversary
    of the day you were born
    But Fear not
    for I have a Present
    It is a cake obviously
    Never doubt me
    never
    Either way
    cake
    For you should feed your Gluttony
    And though I ate nine-tenths of the cake
    you still ate
    O how kind I am
    How much more Retribution
    truth
    But I am higher of that
    Regarded as Saint
    that is what kindness I have

    O' brother
    I write to you today
    for my anniversary of the day
    I died came
    I have seen a ******
    I have seen a robbery
    I have seen the cruelty of humanity
    But all I am and is a bystander
    who keeps His Head down
    With mediocrity
    and hypocrisy
    Ego dominant
    while the Id is miniscule
    Either way
    It seems that
    I can't show my kindness no more

    O' mineself
    I have a confession
    I may see the trash
    out of all the trash
    and though the foggy mirror
    blurs it
    I Still See
    Mineself
    For even though
    I have saved a kittens life
    I have saved a boys life
    I have saved a girls life
    I have saved an adults life
    I have saved my ego
    I have saved my Id
    How more trash could I be
    I can't say sorry
    no
    I can only say that I am no more
    a saint
    a bystander
    just the trashiest
    of all trash

#trash #life #stages #comingoflife #innocence #tainted #trashiest #ode #narcissism #vainglory

SiouxF Oct 2020

I Might As Well Be Dead

I did what you did
I said what you said
I felt what you felt
I believed what you believed
I was what you thought I should be
I was so well hidden
I might as well been dead

#narcissism

SiouxF Oct 2020

Growing Awareness

Blindfold off
Scales removed
Awareness and
Growing realisations
Of what deep down I already knew
But too afraid to admit openly,
As too many hangover feelings
Of how it felt to be
Downtrodden
Abused
A thing
An object,
Too many layers of others
Like a straitjacket
Confining me
Restricting me
Hiding me
From my true self
From my destiny
From my soul’s path

#narcissism #destiny #soul

SiouxF Oct 2020

I’m Not Used To

I’m not used to being asked
For my opinion
My point of view
My thoughts
My feelings
What I want to do.
It’s not important.
I’m not important.
I don’t matter.
All my life
I’ve just been told
What to do
(Whatever you want to do)
What to say
(Whatever you say, or nothing at all)
What to believe
(Whatever you believe)

Always treading on eggshells
Holding my breath
Afraid to say the wrong thing
Do the wrong thing
Be the wrong thing
That would spark a spiteful retort
Piercing my heart
And dashing my dreams.
Acting always in fear of consequences
And never living at all

#narcissism #fear

SiouxF Oct 2020

Blinkers Off

Disempowering
Negative
Malicious
Beliefs from him
Imprinted onto me
Manipulating and controlling me
Blinkering me from the truth
Leading me down rabbit holes of lies, confusion and brain fog
For years and years
Leading to defensiveness,
Aggression
Unhappiness
Sadness
Denial of my true self
And my qualities and passions,
Keeping me playing small
Insignificant
Unworthy
Undeserving,
All because he was afraid
Of my greatness
And my strength.
*******!
Blinkers off!
They weren’t my beliefs!
None of it was true!
They were lies!
Letting go
Of this distorted perception of self
To enter into a deeper understanding of who I am
What I stand for
And to embrace and
Love and
Accept
All of me
As I am

#narcissism #strength

Michael Sep 2020

Nothing But Lies

When you talk to me
Your words don’t touch my ears
What you said to me
I might as well not even hear

When you write to me
I see nothing but a blank page
Those words you wrote to me
Are words in which I can’t even engage

How can I know you
While you’re in that disguise?
What’s the point of you
When you say nothing but lies?

When you gaze at me
They’re just empty blank stares
That look you gave me
Nothing more than a mask you wear

How can I see you
When you can’t even look me in the eyes?
What’s even the point of you
When you say nothing but lies?

You can’t see no evil
Hear no evil
And speak no evil
When all you ever do is deceive

You can’t see no evil
Hear no evil
And speak no evil
If nothing about you can be believed

When you say you love me
What do you expect me to do?
I’d simply be hypocritical
If I said I love you too

So how can I love you
When your love is nothing I recognize?
What’s the point of you
When you say nothing but lies?

#lies #narcissism #trust