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It's been a roller coaster for the past week, thank God whenever I thought of "Everything will be okay, please let me be okay" He gives me.

I don't know why I always let things go after being alright again, like in a week I have a circumstance with my... not once but several times in a week. It always crosses my mind that it's exhausting yet I am the one that makes the move, I a little convo and I'm good... and then it repeats.

I am not easily depressed and not a personal giver up.
But today I felt all those years, all these past days walks in mind,
it causes me a physical head heaviness, internal mind defense/confusion
- anxiety? I don't know yet, prolly in denial. I just can't be weak right now, not a chance and I can't let a lot down.

Well, this has been long... I know I said a lot but in the end - Just forget what I've said, I can't do that now nor I don't know when. Think of this as a venting session, in the end like always

I'll say this:
"Nah, I'm good! Let's just keep moving forward."

Peace out y'all, funny I'm okay now.