Who am I?
Where am I going?
Though I try to understand
I don't know what I'm doing

I'm a little fish on land
Lungs with no air
Struggling to breath
I have become scared

But no one can know
I won't let them see
There are many fish in the ocean
But none on land for me

The waves are crashing in
Just beneath my skin
Do you hear the thunderclouds?
In my head, they're way too loud
The tidal waves are coming
And the rain will start to pour
So I better start running
Because I'm only in for more
The lighting starts to strike
Striking in my mind
Setting my thoughts on fire
Burning behind my eyes
You will never see
What's inside of me
And I will never strive
To be what I am inside
So turn away from the truth
Don't stay I'm begging you
You don't deserve what's to come
It's best if I just turn and run
I hide from myself
Afraid of what I'll see
So please protect yourself
From whats inside of me

I think I lost myself
and I've become someone else
but I don't really know if I remember who I was before
so until I find myself
I'm asking for your help
I'll get on my knees I'm begging you please to help me find who I was before
I wonder if you hear
what sounds like fear
because it's resonating in my mind and I think it's controlling my heart
maybe I'm not really here
and maybe I shouldn't try to steer
because every time I do I hit a wall and it's tearing me apart

My mind is free range
And deranged
And rather strange
But i guess that's ok
In this game
That i play
There's always high winds
The rules tend to bend
So you never really win
But I play anyways
In hopes that one day
I'll win the game
I'm not searching
For fortune or fame
I'm just in love
With the thrill of the game
You will never
Destroy my hope
Cause even in the dark
Stars still glow

My inside are all dark
And my big heart
Falls apart
Its the little things that **** me
But i receive
Them gladly
You never see
What hurts me
Don't worry
I'm not searching
For fortune or fame
I'm just in love
With the thrill of the game
You will never
Destroy my hope
Cause even in the dark
Stars still glow

Cast me out
Into the sea
Forget everything
That I used to be
I tried to forget
I tried to forgive
But I lost myself
Trying to live
Cast me out
In the stones of death
Forget I ever
Held a breath
Blame me now
For my father's sins
I tried to be better
I really did
But the past is now
Its come again
Too late for apologies
I'll never win
My mind has made
A choice, not mine
The end is to come
Only with time
You may not see
Before it's too late
The moment is now
For you to take

I don't care
Whats in your hair
But I'll be there
When there's a bear
And I'll fight it
But I'm afraid of the sky
Because things can fly
So i close my eyes
So the dark confines
But they find me
So in the dark ill hide
Wheres there's no light
So they cant find
Whats in my mind
Because its frightening

I don't know where I'm going
In my soul, I think it snowing
I think I'm asleep
But my dreams haunt me
So I will walk until I'm home
So why do I feel so alone

From night to day
There is a change
One that strays
From my mistakes
But I'll hide it
The sun was gone
Before this song
Came along
And tried to write the wrong
Can you guide it
My mind is lost
Due to frost
The cold can cost
For I'm, not the boss
Though I comprise him

I don't know where I'm going
In my soul, I think it snowing
I think I'm asleep
But my dreams haunt me
So I will walk until I'm home
So why do I feel so alone

My words disappear more often than not
Lost in a sea made of thought
Though i try retain the little i can
Everyday it gets harder to stand
Metaphors and sarcastic tones
Replace the smiles that called my lips home
My poems have lost the flare of my mind
The words will soon be lost to time
I've given my all and have little left
My greatest love has made the greatest theft
Maybe its all manifested inside
And all of my confusion is based on a lie
My heart is a mess and covered in webs
Smothered to the point where i no longer draw breath
Built to survive I don't need to live
Just get through the night to fake another grin

Words clutter my tongue
And I don't know where they come from
Or why they're here
The speak of the darkest parts of my fear
But they tell of the good times
the bad and the worse
They tell of the last time
And the second and first
They say sweet things
But the words can also be mean
But all of these words mean so much to me
You hear my voice but not what i say
There's things i whisper when you walk away
But today is a good day
And tomorrow it will be yesterday
I lose my words and some times find to many
But there are times when I can't form any
A story in the making page by page
Another character is written as another one fades

I'm silent enough to listen
But my head still screams my fears
I want to do more than listen
But the silence is all I hear
You say I'm more than nothing
But why can't I see it to
I strive to at least be something
But nothing is all I do

I tend to play with the ashes
After the bridges have burned
The smoke scars my lungs
As the shadows start to lurk
I never learn my lesson
I'm always on the run
Nothing satisfies the monster
No matter what I've done

I've been up but I stay down
I've become friends with the ground
You can't save what I am
When I'm only half a man
You say left but I go right
You won't save me tonight
Maybe I loved you before
But now something isn't right