Part 1 : I opened our first page with no expectations

The day we first met,
The first day of spring 2015.

I still remember the scent of the cool air on that day
The silent wind tickled my exposed skin
The faded jazz music from the coffee shop
The customers’ chuckles and chatters

And then there’s you.

I still remember what you wore on that day
Even your first words to me
The sparks in your eyes pulled me
The sweetness in your smile weakened me

And when our eyes met, the Ice Plants bloomed.

The night when spring found us
under this dim disco light
you held your hand for me
and pulled my body into yours

With the heat of our love
and the pairs of eyes on us
I was so ready to kiss you
like we can do this all night

So let’s go nowhere, you said
under the small bridge
across the food stalls
with the murmurs of unfamiliar faces
in our big city
when everything will shine before us

We let our walls fall to the ground
and to release our soul
while our love is exploding
creating a universe between the two of us

At 2:52 a.m as you dozed off to sleep, I hung up the phone.
That's when I realized what the meaning of happiness was,
I found a natural drug for all my pain and anxiety.
It's your voice, your smile.
I'm in love with your smile.
I'm in love with you and I haven't even touched your skin.
I've fallen in love with your soul. I’ve found the light I've been searching for.
How can I be in love with someone that I’ve never met in the flesh?  
You're trapped between pixels on a phone
Between the muffled words
Poor connections,
And long pauses.
You brought light to the darkest parts of me,
You make me feel safe from the things that hurt inside.
And I know we are both broken but you took my heart and placed it back together.  
At 2:52 a.m I thank the universe for bringing us together
Because the odds of us ever meeting were slim.
Now its 2:53 a.m. and I realized that I can never tell you this.

being in love
What is love
How does it feel being in love

you want to feel it
I want to feel it
I think am in love
in love with just not myself
I think am in love with you

never in my life
did i ever think
i would say this word
but i said it anyways
am in love

I'm stuff in love and

forget to get off the bus –


I'm lost in her scent.

Iv'e been lost in your beauty
Many times before.
The way you flow so flawlessly
The way the light shines through you
The way you sparkle and shine
As it bounces off each remarkable ripple.

I've been up and down you
Many times before.
Getting lost in your current
Endlessly exploring every part of you
You've carried me so far
As I floated contently for the ride.

I have come to you
Many times before.
You have never let me down
You have been so kind
When I need a friend, you will comfort me
And I'll be forever grateful.

Spelling secret messages
With my fingers
On your back
Of the words that I am too afraid to tell you.

Living in a fantasy
That is a reality
My younger self
Could never comprehend.

As we float downstream
I wish this river had no end
Not knowing if i'd ever
Get to see your face again.

But I open my eyes
And there you are
Standing right in front of me.

Paralyzed by your smile
I can only do the same.