Memories Perfectly Printed In The Pages,
Of A Locked--Leather Backed Book,
I've Repayed My Erie Wages,
And Yet My Pride Is Took,
Misery Formed In Many Different Stages,
Mirrors Reflect A Conversation Piece--The Hook,
Feared Creatures Locked In Steel Cages,
Sadly They Thought I Was A Crook,
Help Written In The Margins--Doleful--Enraged,
Bitter Words Spat In My Face--Look,
Actions And Emotions Staged,
A Mind Mastering Melancholy And Is Shook,
Names And Places Engraved,
The Platter Of Humane Treatment--Perfectly Cooked,
At The Last Paragraph In This Phasing,
Locked Book,
The Words To Be Continued,
Reflect In The Green Eyes,
Of A Caged Being

Figures Stand Stone Still In Stained Glass Windows,
Yet Their Colors Sway To My Lone Voice

Vultures Soar Under The Eye Of The Sun,
Yet They Pause Just To Enjoy The Sound

Butterflies Flutter In The Hue Of Dusk,
And Then Are Lulled To A Gentle Slumber From My Despair

*SydneyVictoria

I
    Am
            Tired
                    Of
                          Humanities
                           ­                     Arrogance
                                                                ­    I
                                                         Have
                                               Lost
                                                         Faith

My Forehead On Fire,
Fate Destroying Pieces Of The Puzzle,
Fiddling With A Broken Heart,
Shhh Don't Speak You Slithering Serpent,
I Found You Already,
Feeding On My Misery,
You Cowardly Caressed My Courage,
Picking It Up You Ripped It,
Trying Rebind It,
You Dropped My Dusty Glass Of Dreams,
Trying To Sweep Up The Mess,
You Knocked Over My Knowledge,
Which Was Kindle To Your Open Flame,
Of Dwindling Depression,
Whenever I Try To Make Things Right,
You Have To Sprinkle A Little Wrong Onto Our Cake Of Caring,
And Now I Feel Like You Don't Care About Who Or What I Am....
I Am An Enigma To You,
But Instead Of Trying To Understand You Criticize,
You Chase Away The Creativity,
You Indulge In The Pain Of Uncertainty,
Sometimes I Feel You Carefree Hands Ripping At My Well Being,
And I Always Ask Myself,
Why Do I Still Love You When Sometimes You Make Me Miserable...

Love,
            What
                        Do
               ­                You
                                         See
                                                 When
                                           You
                                 Look
                           In
                    My
          Eyes
  Can
       You
               See
                      How
                               Much
                                            I
        ­                                       Really
                   ­               Need
                    *You

The March Breeze Seeps Through,
The Pained Window's Tattered Screen,
Passed The Paled Curtains,
Cuddling The House Plant's Green,
Swimming With The Yellow Flame

The Birds And Bees Dance,
Butterflies Flying Too And Fro,
Dancing On Tip-Toe,
Hummingbirds Joining In Romance,
As The Lilacs Beautifully Bloom

The Breeze Whispered Gently In My Ear,
"Shhh," It Said,"Mother Earth Is Here."
A Single Feather Dropped From Her Wing,
"Do Not Cry, She Gave You The Gift To Sing."
The Sun Smiled And Bombasticly Said,
"Mamma Earth Is Always Here To Clear Your Head."
Dew Drops Smiled On The Tips Of Wheat,
"She Still Thieves Though She Is Dressed In Concrete."
A Slate Blue Guppy Waved A Fragile Fin,
"Mother Earth Always Wins."
Waves Danced With The Invisible Arms Of The Moon,
"Please Return To Mamma Soon."

©SydneyVictoria Feb. 13 2013

Mother Earth's Skin Oozed Between My Toes,
As I Listened To The Trees Whisper To Me,
"It's Okay, Just Let Go"
The Heat Of The Day Warmed Me To My Core,
Beads Of Perspiration Collected On My Forehead,
As My Burning Feet Cooled In The River,
The Songbirds Whistled A Soothing Tune,
"It's Okay, Just Let Go"
As My Body Sunk To The Ground,
And Became One With Our Mother,
The River Swirled Around My Feet,
Singing As It Lapped Upon My Skin,
"It's Okay, Just Let Go"
And With That, I Did

My Whole World A Light Pastel Grey,
Grey As The Mighty Wolf's Pelt,
Grey As The Ocean's Water On A Misty Day,
Grey As The Iced Concrete,
My Whole World Is Cold,
Cold As The Common One--Nose Raw And Red,
Cold As A Demon's Heart,
Cold As My Pale Pale Skin,
My World Is Broken--Beautiful China Shattered,
Broken As A Branch After A Storm,
Broken As A Window After Abandonment,
Broken As My Very Heart,
My Whole World ****--**** As Nature,
**** As The Tree's Brittle Fingers,
**** As The Cloud Covered Sky,
**** As My Freckled Face,
My Whole World Waiting Quietly,
Waiting For Spring--To Bloom,
Waiting For Something Spectacular,
Waiting For A Better You

I Wasn't Good Enough For Him,                                    
Wasn't Good Enough For Her,                                        
Wasn't Good Enough For Them,
Inside I Stir,
Black On The Walls,
White On The Door,
I Feel All That's Good,
Has Fell Through The Floor,
I Do Not Miss It,
Nope--Not A Bit,
I Could Cry And Yell,
And Even Throw A Fit,
I Flunked The System,
I Failed A Dream,
My Skin Is Bruised,
But I Swam That Stream,
You Say Hello As You Pass,
You Think My Week Was Good?
You Think I Had A Blast?
When You Said Goodbye I Ran Away,
*Fast

Not A Single Cloud,
Dots A Square Inch Of The Sky,
The Blue Has Returned

Maybe Some Of Us,
Feel Extraordinary Pain,
Because We Have Felt,
Too Much In A Past Lifetime,
So We Will Never Forget

The
       Flower
                    Blooms
                                  Before
                                                It
                                                     Dies.
                                             *The
                                     Tear
                            Falls
                Before
           It
Dries.

I Haven't Felt This Way In A Long Time,
I Closed Up All Of My Bad Memories,
In "Boxes",
Tapped Them Shut,
And Kept Them In The Back Of My "Memory Closet"

It's Amazing,
How Old Ghosts,
Can Come Back To Haunt You

It's Amazing How One Word,
One Name,
Can Open Those Boxes,
And Put The Contents,
In Front Of You Again

No Matter How Hard I've Tried,
Tried To Look Away,
They Are There,
And I Can't Throw Them Away

I Feel Weak,
Those Memories,
Took My Strength Away

My Life Feels Like A Rose,
Beautiful Ontop,
Blooming,
Bright Red,
Happy,
Bright,
Nothing To Get In My Way

But The Bottom,
It's Full Of Thorns,
Ugly,
Hidden,
Waiting To Attack The Person Who Dares To Try To Pick Me,
It's Like A Wall

Few Know,
Or Ever Will Know,
Who I Am,
My Roots,
My Thoughts,
What I've Gained,
And What I've Lost

Now I Have To Find The Tape,
Carefully Tape Up Those Boxes,
Put Them Back,
And Hope They Will Never Be Opened Again

A Little Truth Still Wandered,
In The Crook Of Your Vanishing Smile,
Your Eyes Were Dull As A February Evening,
As They Pierced My Own With Such Force,
A Wilting Sunflower Stared From Outside,
It's Petals Bleached From Jack Frost's Fingers,
Mirroring The Strength Which Scurried Away,
From My Burried Conscience

One Day I Hope You Feel The Same Pain,
You Brough Upon Me,
One Day I Hope You Can Forgive Yourself,
For Hurting Me,
One Day I Hope,
You Can See You Have No Effect On Me,
I Forgive You,
Because I Feel Bad For You,
I Feel Bad For You,
Because It's Been Months,
I Feel Bad For You,
Because You Still Talk About My Errors,
One Day,
I Hope,
I Sincerly Do,
You Can Find Happiness,
Without Downing Someone Has Made One Less Mistake,
Then You

Though My Dreams Are Filled With Horrors,
My Life Is Filled With Open Doors

Heavens Dressed In Cobalt Velour,
Snow Draped Upon A Forest's Floor.
Night Yielding Adorning Decor;
Starlight Swirling Beneath Time's Oar.
Tides Of Wonder Slosh Against Shore,
Smooth Silence Drawing An Encore.
Transparent Sun Seeps From A Spore,
Vacant Words Cease *Forevermore

Flames Slowly Start To Engulf My Hatred
And Quickly Rekindles My Love
Two Pairs Of Amber Orbs
Stare Into Eachother
Reading A Cryptic Script
Ingredients To Concoct A Brew Of Passion
To Beautifully Stain Life's Pages
                                                My Hand Lies In Yours
                            And You Tentatively Kiss My Lips
                                               Your Greyish Blue Eyes
                    Stare Into My Pine Needle Green Irises
                                        And You Don't Look Away
                              When You Tell Me You Love Me
The Sun Hides Underneath The Horizion
The Only Light Is From Our Flame
Which Burns On The Forest Floor
But Is Too Gentle To Destroy The Thickets
The Stars Above
Guard Our Wishes
And We Both Know
Every Wish Is About Eachother
                                    A Star Dangles From My Neck
                     Your Promise To Me I'm Forever Yours                My Wish That Your Promise Will Never Be Broken
                              As You Softly Whisper In My Ear
                                  I Feel Your Breath On My Skin
                             You Hold Me Tight In Your Arms
        Which Is The Nicest Home I Could Ever Own
The Crickets Are Now Dead In Falls Grasp
But The Music Of Our Love
A Silent Beat In The Night
Is Music To Our Fire
Which Warms The Night
Tree Branches Are Our Ceiling
And The Ground Is Our Chairs
The Sky Is Our Blanket
And Our Heartbeat Is Our Furnace
                                                 A Dream Of True Love
                                                               Is Finally Real
                        You Were The One For All This Time
                                       That Really Helped Me Heal        And As You Come Show Me Who You Really Are
                       I Have To Say I Love You Even More
As Our Flame Grows As Bright As The Sun
We Burn Down To The Mantle Of The Earth
Sniging Away All Of Our Past Sins
It's Just You And I
And Our Heats Beat As One

                *And As We Resume Our Lives Apart
                    We Are Closer Than Ever Before
             And As You Gently Kiss Me Goodnight
                    I Realize I Met You For A Reason