Colors Of Twilight
Are Quilt-Like On The Water
Pale Yellows Meet Gray

The Water Is Still
A Tranquil Night Is Welcomed
By Some Fireflies

The Moonlight Is Blurred
Wrapped In A Cotton-Like Film
Painted Violet

Colors Of Twilight
Swirl Beneath A Gentle Oar
I’m Thinking Of You

Music In And Out,
Static Swirling In My Ears,
Thoughts Go The Same Way,
Screeching To An Abrupt Stop,
When Hitting Bumbs On The Road

The Gentle Pads Of My Finger Tips Are Frigid,
The Skin Under The Lip Of My Shoe Is Raw And Worn,
From All The Cautious Steps I've Taken,
The Leafy Green Of My Tired Eyes Is Dulled,
From Hours Of The Presence Of Vision,
The Fraile Glass Windows Are Frosted Over,
Crystallized Molecules Whisper To The Half Moon,
My Heart In A REM State Of Mind,
From All Of It's Beatings,
And The Color Which I Portray Is Black,
Because It Is The Absortion Of The Artist's Pallette

The Sky A Sickly Yellow--The Dome In Which I Lay,
It Congregates With Blue, Pink, And A Greenish Grey,
The Sun Grasps The Horizon, But Drowns In Trees,
I Stretched My Wings--Frosty Feathers--And I Was Free,
Free Of Scowls Which Burn Into Me, Free Of My Own,
Free From The Glazed Eyes, Which Rest On Mine--
Stones,
Yes, I Admit I Could Be Better, I Admit I Am An Error,
I Admit I Am Somewhat Weak, Still Gasping For Air,
Maybe I'm Just A Secret Which Sits On A Stained Lip,
Ready To Be Worked Against, To Make Someone Slip,
I Dont Want To Hurt Anyone, Not Even A Single Soul,
Yet I Feel Like I May, Or Someone Will Take Their Toll,
I Always Feel Like A Let Down--Like I'm Never Good,
Enough--I Feel So Alien--So Misunderstood*
Yet Why Should That Matter To Anyone?

Snow Knee Deep,
Footprints Indent The Sheer Surface,
Hoarforst Coats The Trees,
Don't Run Away From,
My Poor Human Body,
The Fraile Mess That Runs After You,
Is Not The One I Wish To Be,
Don't Run Away From Me,
I'm Still One Of You

Consciousness Regained,
Wiping Watery Eyes With Blood Stained Palms,
Dreading These Long,
17 Hour Days,
Unplugged From The Material Plain,
All I Hear,
Is Their Voices Slamming,
Against Innocent Lockers,
All I Smell Is Poisoned Berry Perfume,
All I Say,
Is One Scream,
All I Can Feel,
Is My Book Slamming On The Ground,
All I See,
Is Blurry Brick Walls,
White As The Snow I Lost My Family Upon

All I Can Feel Are Peoples Arms Around Me,
Asking If I'm Okay,
No,
Incase You Are Wondering,
All I Can Tell Myself Is,
Stop Running Away

Don't Runaway From Me Again,
I Feel All Alone,
Don't Runaway From Me Lobo,
You Are The Only True Thing I Know

Dont Try To Overthrow Me,
This Is My Territory,

Don't Try To Touch Me,
You Fraile,
Cold Hearted,
Tantrum Throwing Annoyance,
Don't Speak,
About The People Who Are Better Than You,
Dont Speak Lies,
Which Only Some Believe

Dont Try To Crush Me,
You Foul,
Demonic Child,
Don't Glare At Me,
I Have The Strongest Stare,
Don't Say You Want To **** Me,
You Would Never Succseed If You Try,
You Are Simply To Weak

Dont Try To Take Over Because,
You Are The Opposite Of The Human Spirit,
You Are The Flip Side Of Incredible,
Trying To Break Through The Wall,
I've Been Forced To Rebuild,
Over,
And Over,
I'm At Full Strength,
And Yet You Try To Break Me Down,
You Make Me Laugh

You're The Omega,
You Misquito,
Constantly Buzzing Around My Ear,
Telling Me What A ***** I Am,
And You Are An Angel?
You Are Demon
You Reddheaded Brat

Shut Your Mouth,
You Disease,
No One Wants You,
No One Wants To Taste The Hate You Hide,
No One Wants To See The Side I've Seen,
At One Time,
You Were Funny,
Bubbly,
Let Me Pop Those Bubbles,
Just Like You Popped Mine

I Am Indecent?
Because I'm Ugly?,
Only In You Crap Brown Eyes,
Tell It To My Face,
Not My Friends,
I'll Break Your Nose,
How Will You Feel Then?

You Are Nothing To Me,
A Waist Of Space,
I'm Tired Of Getting Pushed Around By You,
I Am Your Alpha,
I Have The Power To Hurt You,
Injure You Permanently,
But I Wont,
Just So You Know,
I'm Strong,
Physically,
Intellectually,
And You Are,
The Frost Who Wishes To **** My Rose,
But  Good Luck
The Climate,
Is Getting Warmer

Doves Flying,
Crying,
Dying,
In City Smog,
White Feathers Stained From Human Garbage,
Stained From Society's Words,
White Angels Turned Into Common Rock Doves,
Tears Rolling Down Their Cheeks,
Because They Know They're Lossing Themselves,
Doves Crying,
On The Statue Of Liberty,
Because They Know Freedom Isn't Free,
And They Know,
No One Is Truly Accepted,
Humans Ruthless,
Society Clueless,
Doves Released At Weddings Cry,
Because They Understand That,
The Bride And The Groom Will Both Be,
Heartbroken,
Doves Cry In The Streets,
And In The Sky's,
Wondering Why,
The World Took A Turn For The Worst

Poison Running Through My Veins,
Broken Glass On The Window Pain,
Dreams Dead,
And I Am Blamed,
What Did I Do,
To Be Stuck In The Rain,
Romance Growing,
And Trust Fading,
The Ref Blows The Whistle,
It's Time For Some Hating,
Let Me Tell You,
By Procrastinating,
You Can Be Negitave,
And I Can Be Ashamed,
But We Both Know If I Leave,
You'll Never Be The Same

Do You Want Me To Leave,
Are You Pushing Me Away,
We Are Both Of The Leash,
And Starting To Stray,
Don't Try Hurting Me,
I'm Already Broken,
Don't Ask My Opinion,
I Have Already Spoken,
And You Can Go Out,
And Cheat And Smoke And,
I May Never Know,
But I'll Keep Provoking,
If It's True,
I Want To Know,
Do You Want Me To Leave,
Because If You Do,
I Can Go

Crickets Chirp At Dusk,
Reminding Me It Is Time,
To Climb Into Bed,
And To Shut My Weary Eyes,
To Dream Of You Once Again

You Have Come To Know Me Too Well,
With The Charming Blink Of Your Eye,
I'm Held Captive Under Your Spell,
And When All The Light Has Drawn Nigh,
I Can Still Hear The Ancient Knell,
Ringing Throughout The Nighttime Sky,
And As I Ponder What To Do,
I Find Myself Dreaming Of You

The Flowers Eager,
To Break Through The Foot Of Snow,
Which Still Loomed Over,
The Roots Inside Their Bodies,
Were So Anxious To Break Free

Everything Was Stiil,
Silence Limgered In The Air,
Soppy Cement Was A Barren Path,
One Star Poked Through Dawn's Misty Sky,
I Was A Shadow,
Completed With Red Pouty Lips,
And Red Lace Running Along My Fair Skin,
My Eyes Strained To See 20 Feet Ahead,
In The Smuthering Darkness,
And I Couldn't Help Thinking,
About *You

Snow Glitters In The Early Morning Light,
The Frosty Tears Of Angels,
Change The Land--And With It--The Creatures,
Stargazers Stare Blankly At The Sky For Answers,
The Cloaks Of Shadows Dip Into The Trees,
Holiday Trees Loom In Windows,
Promising Happiness,
But Screaming Voices Pierce Transparent Glass,
Frightening The Creatures In The Forest,
Snowflakes Lethargically Fall,
They Stare At Themselves Floating To Earth,
In Golden Irised Eyes,
Enchantment Holds A Heart In Soft Palms,
A Soul Kissed By Smooth And Pure Lips,
A Vacant Feeling Being Filled,
A World In A Sub-Conscious Mind,
More Rewarding Then Conscious Activity,
A World Of Dreams,
A World Of Good,
A World Of Truth,
Don't Make Me Leave,
This World Of Enchantment

I Wish I Could Erase Memories,
So You Wouldn't Know Who I Am,
I Wish I Could Erase Memories,
So This Hell Wouldnt Have Began,
I Wish I Could Erase Memories,
So Tears Will Never Come,
I Wish I Could Erase Memories,
So You And I Are Never Be Bummed,
I Wish I Could Erase The Past,
So I Could Stop All The Rumors,
I Wish I Could Erase The Past,
So A Mistake Didnt Come Out Of Humor,
I Wish I Could Erase You,
Because Then I'd Never Have Been Sad,
I Wish I Could Erase You,
So I Did Never Hurt My Dad,
I Wish I Could Erase You,
And Many Others Who Have Made Me Mad,
I Wish I Could Erase Them All,
Every Heartless Person Who Made Me Crumble,
I Wish I Could Erase Them All,
Every Person Who Made Me Struggle,
I Wish I Could Erase All The Nightmares,
The Nightmares That Were Real,
I Wish I Could Erase The Nightmares,
The Thoughts So Surreal,
I Wish I Could Erase The Scars,
The Scars On Skin,
I Wish I Could Erase The Scars,
The Ones Gained From Way Back When,
I Wish I Could Erase Every Tear,
Every Coat Of Eyeliner That's Been Smeared,
I Wish I Could Erase Every Stammered Word,
Every Scar From Evil Mans Sword,
Every Breath Ive Taken To Block Back Anger,
And Erase Every Anchor,
That Holds Me To Earth

Stale Memories Seep Into My Mind,
The Sight Of Faces So Brutal So Unkind,
Confessing The Unholy Truth Which Is Entwined,
In The World Of Blackened Sin In A Sacred Shrine

Epiphanies Swimming Inside The Confusion,
Life A Lie--Caught In An Illusion,
A Mind Weak From Climbing Hills Of Thought,
All Of The Mountians I've Never Forgot

The Pleasure Of Escape Is Reality Of Dreaming,
Though When I'm Awake My Soul Is Screaming,
Chills Race Along My Pale And Chapped Skin,
From Enemies Staring--A Deleterious Grin

Fatigue Grasping Me In Angry Fists,
My Heart Breaking--Endless Splits,
People Standing On Streets With Bottles Of Gin,
Just Trying To Forget All Of Their Sins

Stars Guide From Up Above,
Dark In The Sky--Billions Of White Doves,
Lights Shining Beautiful And Bold,
I'm Finally Fine, Believe What You're Told

My Throat Red And Raw,
I Am Drinking From The Sea,
My Reflection Blurred,
Frigid Yet Soft Like The Stars,
My Eyes Dark And Vacant*

                         My Fists Are Clenching,
                      Trembling In Waning Light,
                           I'm Thinking Of You,
                  For I've Dreamed Of You Again;
                           A Pale,  Lonely Memory

You Are Small And Frail,
Wrapped In A Plaid Comforter,
Tears Roll Down Your Cheeks;
You Were Thinking Back To Me,
When Your Hell Had Just Began

                              I'm Biting My Lip,
              While Watching The Leaves Recoil,
                             I Am Fidgeting,
                  Taping My Pen Rhythmically,
                     Trying To Distract Myself

I Breathe In Deeply,
My Heart Is Beating Too Fast,
I Gently Touch You,
You Turned To Look In My Eye,
You Murmured,"Why Are You Here?"

                                I Rub My Forehead,
                        My Palm As Cold As The Air,
                               I Stare At The Ground,
                      My Thoughts Are Disorganized,
                      Strewn Around, Pictures Of You

I've Jumped In The Sea,
Your Sad Eyes Have Seen Me Off,
For Some Strange Reason,
I Don't Feel Satisfaction,
Only A Hint Of Pity

                                   I Do Feel Relieved,
                     Not Because You Have Crumbled,
                                 But Because I'm Free,
                    I Am Free From Your Strained Grasp,
                      For You Had Said That One Word

*Goodbye

These Red And Black Walls,
Have Seen My Tears To Many Times,
This Out Of Tune Piano,
Has Felt My Shaking Fingers,
Grasping Onto Its Keys For Comfort,
For So Many Months,
My Eyes Are Strained,
Bloodshot And Stinging,
For The Millionth Time,
This Ceiling Has Looked Down Upon,
My Sleepless Slumber,
For Hours,
This Air Has Inhabited My Heaving Lungs,
For To Many Meangless Lives,
A Lesson Learned,
But Not Rewarded,
Returning To The Material Plain,
This Night Sky,
Has Wrapped Me In The Darkness,
For So Many Breathless Seconds,
Why Does This Paint Brush Sit In My Palm,
When The Canvas Is Already Onyx,
Lament,
Lugubrious,
Loved,
Lost,
Why Do Thesw Feelings Spin,
In A Continous Loop,
Why Does History,
Repeat,
Over And Over And Over,
Why Does The Pain Repeat,
Over And Over And Over,
Why Must There Be This Orchestrated,
Cycle Of Falling Down,
Getting Back On Your Feet,
Then Falling Down Again,
Why Must These Faces,
See My Paled Face,
The One Sick,
Of The Circulation Of Secrets,
The One Sick Of The Lies,
The One Who Is So Broken,
Because Everything Good That Comes,
Is Ripped Out Of My Hands

You
        Had
                 Me*
                       Falling
                                      For
                                             You
                                                       At
                                                             Your
                                                     ­                   First
                                        ­                                         Word

                                       *"Hello"

Far
     Away
                 Is
                    Never
                              ­     Far
                                          Enough...
          ­                                                 I
                                                              A­m
                                                               ­       Still
                                                    ­                         *Seen

Finally I Am At 100%
                      100% Myself
Finally I Can Have That Smile
            The One That Can Make Hearts Melt
Finally I Was Able To Rub How Amazing I Am
                     In Your Two Faces
In Life
          There Is Mysterys That Are Unsolved
Finally I Can See Past
                            All The Lies
Finally
                       Now I Can See The Truth
Finally
                      Now I Am At Full Strength
Finally
                             *I Am 100% Myself

The First Day I Met You,
I Was, Oh, So Cold,
But You,
Warmed My Soul

The First Day I Met You,
I Was, Oh, So Alone,
But You--You,
Showed Me Home

The First Day I Met You,
I Was, Oh, So Very Young,
But You, Yes You,
Put Air Into My Heaving Lungs

I Was Made From Pollen And Brittle Beige Petals,
My Blood Was Created From Silver Dewdrops,
My Eyes Were Made From Two Summer Leaves,
And My Lips Were Created By Ripe Strawberries,
I Feed Off Of The Sun And I Am Anchered In Soil,
Yet There Is Always The Threat Of Being Plucked,
Of Being Put Into A Vase Just For Show,
But I Will Wilt Because I Am No Longer Rooted,
To The Earth's Resonating Crust

SydneyVictoria

Lavenders Awake,
Marigolds Strech Their New Leaves,
The Withered Rose Grins

I Really Hate School,
I Feel Like Such A Fool,
I'm Not What You Consider Cool,
Apparently The People Who,
Are People Who Are Too Clueless To Spell Drool,
Are The Ones Who Rule,
There's No Chlorine In This Social Pool,
No Sifters To Take Out The Toddler Pooh,
That's Right Your Toddler Stool,
You're Just Fuel,
To My Fire Which Is Burning So Cruel,
Come Walk In & I'll Make You Shine Like A Jewel

Lavender paints the heavens, lingering
Over an elegant array of cerulean, silk
Gossamers. Rays of sunlight dangling
Among the fringes of distorted clouds,
Nestled within the gleam of your eye.
Soft summer breeze caressing my skin;
A tune you hum fastened in my ear.
Lavish hues seep from your open lips--
Never gray. The foliage beneath you is
Evergreen. Autumn only a memory,
Raw yet fictional.

Gullies glide gracefully over skeletal planes
Oblique sunshine withers in the gray
Obsolete, it warms no living creature
Dormant seeds lie hidden beneath gravel,
Buried beneath a sea of smothered
Yearning--awaiting rainfall which looms an
Eternity away

Sinking Silently,
Crossing The Tracks,
A Complexion,
Blending Like Complimentary Colors,
Caged Like An Animal,
Attacked Like A Victim,
Batting My Wings Like A Moth,
But Grounded Like A Penguin,
Spreading Out Beautifully As Peacock,
But Ugly As An Armadillo,
Breaking Inside,
But Already Broken,
Like Shards Of Glass,
Forced To Be Writing In Class,
No Home That Is Safe,
No Feeling Of Peace Walking Down The Hallways Of Hell,
Surrounded By Meaningless Faces,
Wishing To Be Free,
As A Caged Bird Does,
Singing Until My Lungs Burst,
Feeling I Will Never Lift This Curse

Since You're Alive..


Why Is It That You Haunt Me?



**Sydney

Why Do You Always Have To Hurt Me?
Why Do You Always Have To Think So Negatively?
Why Do You Always Look At The Glass Half Empty?
Instead Of Looking What We Have,
I Guess The Ice Cubes In That Drink,
Make It Hard For You To Think,
Always Complaining That It's Not Good,
Yet You Wanna Go To The Party In The Hood,
Mess Up Your Life,
But Saying You're Making Life Right?
You Have A Past,
But Who Am I To Judge?
I Thought This Would Last,
But Now It's A Life Long Grudge,
Saying You Stopped All This Nonsense With Drugs And ****,
Yet If I Ask About Your Past You Start To Yell At Me,
Criticizing My Beliefs Because They Have No Cross To Be Nailed To,
But Being In This World I'm Starting To Live That Lifestyle Through,
Criticize The Unknown Because You Are Afraid,
Yet You Love Discriminating Because You Think It's Brave,
Not Thinking Twice About Conspiracies,
You Just Don't Think Critically,
Unlike Me You Think We Are A Match Made In Heaven,
When Truth Is All You Want To Do Is Pop Prescription Medicine,
You Don't Think About You're Long Term Negative Affect On Me,
All You See Is My Glass Half Full,
Never Looking At It Empty,
And You Don't Like That So You Strive For Us To Be Equal,
This Romance Is Like A Never Ending Sequel,
Hands Tighten Around My Throat As You Try To Kiss Me,
But After The Fact You Sit There And Just Try To Diss Me,
Trying To Smother Out The Truth,
Letting Chaos Run Loose,
Your Just Another Hand To Help Tie The Noose,
Waiting To Strangle My Inner Being And Make Me Scream Truce,
First And Foremost I Believe Everybody Lies,
And I Will Relate To That Until The Day I Die,
Black And White Frames Try To Swallow My Color,
Making Me A Copy Just Like Every Other,
You're Like A Bill O'Reily Or Maybe A Mitt Romney,
When I Try To Speak The Truth You Always Interrupt Me,
I Don't Mean To Name Names,
But These Are Few Who Bring Us Shame,
For Trying To Think Outside The Box,
Who Put The Key Inside The Lock,
And You Sit There Telling Me How School And My Belief's Are Bogus,
But Who Are Trying To Act So **** Heroic?
When I Soar On A Natural High You Say Im Crazy,
But At Least I'm Not Sitting There With A Glass Half Empty...

I Am Ready To Smile Again,
I Am Ready To Revisit All Of The Good Memories In That Place I've Been,
I Am Ready To See Friends I Would Take A Bullet For,
I Am Ready To Feel Good All The Way Down To My Core

But,

I'm Not Ready To Go Back,
I'm Not Ready To Be Attacked,
I'm Not Ready To The Faces,
That Try To Ambush Me In Many Different Places,
I'm Not Ready To Walk Down The Hallways Of Hell,
At The Sound Of A Two Toned Bell

But,

Now I Realized,
I Am Stronger Than Any Of The People They Idolize,
I Have Stuck Through Thick And Thin,
But Still They Critize,
Like They've Never Sinned?
Girls Who Cry On The Stairwell,
Call Me A Suicidal Freak,
And Boys Who Can't Spell,
Say My Words Are Weak

But,

Do I Believe Them?
No
Do I Greave Over The Words They Say?
No
Do I Even Really Care?
No
Do I Respect Them?
No
So Why Should They Even Try To Bring Me Down