I have a tendency to overthink and overreact. I'm quick to get angry. That's just who I am. It's something I get from my dad who got it from his. But I'm going to try and remain calm and not over think and overreact. Just being hurt so many times, it's kind of like a self defense mechanism. I haven't been the best person to be with recently and it hurts me and I can tell it hurts them. But I can guarantee you with my heart, if you stick with me, I won't make you regret it. I know what needs to be done and what I need to change. And I'm GOING to do it.

Please stop coming back,
When you don’t stay for too long,
I can’t take seeing you,
But not seeing you there at all.
My heart still longs
For the feelings you used to give it,
It still searches for home,
Even though home is not in you anymore.

My hands are still searching
For the feeling of yours holding them,
For the intertwined fingers,
The squeezes of love and reassurance.

My mind is still wrapped up,
In sleepy three a.m’s,
In mumbled “i love you’s”,
In sighs of happiness.

I've never seen such a creation'
Rare to find, even in such a population.
So pure, without any variation,
Her presence feels like satiation.

I.Q. quite high, quick in calculations,
Words so persuasive , filled with motivation,
Creative in mind, capable of making innovations .

Has a heart so soft, brimming with emotions
Has an artistic gene, exorbitantly high imagination
Has beautiful eyes, gleaming with determination

But,
My saying is futile, it's  obscure explanation.
Spare a moment or two with her, the ambience itself is a reflection.

I've never seen such a creation,
Even the best of words can't limit her to a definition.

She smiled like a fist fight,
Lips curled into an apology,
Sipping on that darkened bottle,
Wishing for the winter,
Fishing for the rain
and spitting away the sun,
Planting all the daffodils
with the sharpest of knives,
She is an island,
Lost at sea,
unaware of the times,
Smiling like a fist fight,
and a garden of knives