euphoria

Mar 2015

holyoak

&

since you've been gone
i've written a few poems
& not a single one
actually says what i want
because i want to say
i miss you
& i want to say
i need you
& i want to say
come back to me
& you left the door wide open
i thought it was a sign
i thought it was some poetic way
of saying you'd walk back in
but now i realize
you just didn't care enough to shut it
& now i feel a draft
a small cold wind
whispering
"get up & change some things
she left you for a reason"
& now i come to find
that there were never enough ampersands
to keep you & i together

[holyoak]

Feb 2015

Adam Kobosky

That Feeling

I hate that feeling.
           that feeling when you're sad,
But you have no idea why.
           You feel so **** void,
but nothing has happened.
           They ask you what is wrong,
but you can not explain.
           Or they did not ask anything,
I do not know what is worse.
           It just feels like I miss someone,
someone I never met.
           I need someone who does not need me.
Loneliness hovers over me,
           takes control of me.
I do not even care.
           I extricate itself from the goals.
Sadness for now is my best and only friend.
           I begin to hate myself and
I want everyone to leave me alone.
          At the same time,
I want someone to hug me and
          told me that everything will be okay.

**I just hate that feeling.
That feeling,
when you do not even know what the hell you feel.

It's a feeling that only the heart and soul can feel.
Not your brain, because your pain will tell you are
okay when really your heart is altered by the world.
Someone please hold me, I really need it.

#love #heartbreak #feelings #sad #depression #life #heart #pain #thoughts #you

Feb 2015

Adam Kobosky

|Letting Go||Giving In| (Collaboration with Leslie Foster)

Letting Go
What happen with us?
You told me we would be together,
but apparently we aren't.
Did I lie or was it something I said?
No, because you ignore me now!
That night me and you met,
was the greatest of my life yet.
But look at today,
you don't talk to me,
or even acknowledge me.
Its like you want to let go,
even though I don't.
I see your shadow everyday,
and as I see yours.
While all this happens,
I wonder if I could ever let go.

Giving In
(featuring Leslie Foster)**
You look at me like I ruined you,
like I ruined us.
I wish I know how to tell you,
how to tell you how I care.
I can't bare looking at you,
because the pain shakes my very soul.
I love you.
But my love will never fulfill you,
I don't know how to stop feeling so empty.
I’m giving in to my demons,
and I'm dragging you down to hell with me.
I’m sorry,
You don’t deserve this.
I just need help.
Please tell me how to stop giving in.

We all let go, but sometimes it is difficult to give in.
Be careful and stay alive everyone.
Leslie's hellopoetry is HabitsofMyHeart !
Go follow her! <3

#love #heartbreak #sad #depression #life #pain #death #i #you #collaboration