My heart is backed up into a corner..
Shivering, from the cold..
And the anger..

No one understands

I don't care enough?

I'm not the same when we first met..

Accept that..

And accept me..

As someone who will change and continue to change..

Someone that will stand up for what's best for her..

That every time there is anger..

She seems like she is the blame..

Like nothing she does is ever good enough..

This is why there is anger..

Anger in my heart..

Anger in the air..

Anger..

Blank mind, cloudy vision
the satisfying crack of collision
from an elbow swung, or punch thrown
and in my ears, a buzzing drone

I breath deeply, and start to think
of how I was pushed, to the brink
I really do regret it now
I'd fix it but, I don't know how

But it feels so good, at the time
but the mind doing it, isn't mine
It's not the nice sweet child
with polite voice, and manners mild

But which am I and which is me?
Which one of those am I going to be?
The child, who's weak yet nice?
Or the monster, nobody crosses twice?

i see you far,
i wish you near,
you never seem to hear,

my call for you,
each time you go,
wishing for you to come back,
but i guess you said no.

i've moved on with life,
i no longer need you,
so dont come back to me,
when you need,
because i will go,
you will beg me to stay,
and i will say no.

how does it feel?
to be hurt,
and alone.
to not know what to feel anymore,
to not see you come home.

i am gone,
you lost me forever,
i'll never come back,
so leave me alone,
as you should be used to that by now.