I know I’ve been
a handful person,
a mess
and a pain in the ***.

You know that
I’ve been through a lot
and keeping my guard up
for a lot of reasons.



*but please.. don’t let me go.

I'm tracing your name again
On a sheet leading to wonderland
No wonder I never get enough
The guy who caused me such pain

Your existence still lurks on my mind
No wonder I'm thinking about you
Everywhere I go, your scent is there
Everywhere I hide, your voice calls me

My heart is still aching every night
But you are the only one I yearn for
Those embrace that's keeping me sane
No wonder I'm still in love with you

Been holding this rope of forever..

but every grip I do,
I get wounded.
I get broken.

Should I give up or keep on holding?

**No one knows.

You were once my poetry
with every word describing you
but now you’re no longer a part of it
you’re now a masterpiece I never knew I’d write

She's like deliquescent caramel,

the cool side of a pillow

        to lay your weary head,

subtleties of springtime &

          warmth in wintertide,

whispering hope upon lush  

        Zephyrus pipe dreams,  

    mellifluous nymph with wings

                 of a butterfly warrior,

softly determined,

    unfailingly true-hearted,

       whilst relentlessly ferocious

  Wise, yet sometimes struts

        blindly in the light,

       as dulcet tones of a cello's

           melodious marmalade

            in sentiment's tender fancy,

she's beauty, charm,

         knowledge, poetry,

               utter strength,

               & humane weaknesses,

she's twisted and ethereal,

           her aura sublimely captivating

     you may covet her body,

            you'll never possess her soul