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Julia Oct 2019
I long for an elephant mother
A love above a simple human’s
She’d rest her head upon my shoulder
The exact weight of the past on the present
So that I might find my solace
in each breath I choose to take.

At night she’d place me on her back
and I’d slip away into blissful sleep
helplessly lulled by the sway of her walk
forever set to the cadence of the calm
Julia Oct 2019
I slam against the door of time
like a petulant child.
What do you mean,
I scream
What do you mean,
that there is no alternative
to this *******
you call waiting.
Julia Oct 2019
I float on currents of the past,
with eyes to the sky,
ears submerged,
and hands dragged along the streambed.
My fingers mingle with smooth stones
that tell me a story
of heartache
redemption
and sharp edges worn down with time.
I pass by stoic boulders,
rough and slick and calm.
Sitting still, but not rooted.
I feel them listening
for a force
so extraordinary,
so impossible,
so rare,
even they doubt it will come.
But their very existence
proves that it will.
Julia Oct 2019
As I stare up at the ceiling
I drown myself in metaphors
until I’m inundated
by self-inflicted
symbols of misery.

Oh how clever you are,
to conjure up a whole lifetime
from this one moment,
in which you’ve forgotten
about the sea.
Julia Oct 2019
Did you know I’m brave?
Did you know I’m caring?
Did you know I’m extraordinary?

I’d like to cash these in.
I’d like a payout.
I’d like something in return.

Did you know I’m weak?
Did you know I’m pathetic?
Did you know I’m ungrateful?

I’d like to be punished.
I’d like to be held accountable.
I’d like to bleed away my guilt.

If you’re still listening,
I’d like to know what it is
that I truly deserve.
I’d like to feel free from worrying
that I’m taking too much,
Or not enough,
Or too much,
Or not enough
Julia Oct 2019
I am petrified by your promises,
the ones I don’t believe.
Immortal hope
betrays the heart
as it binds its beat
to the erratic pulse
of your fickle mercy.

Humbly,
I ask the future,
be kind to me.
Julia Oct 2019
It didn’t happen overnight,
It was nightly,
In the dark.
Festering in the day,
Guilty in the sun,
Hidden under smiles,
Masked in the noise,
Owned by the owner,
Used by the user,
Fed by the feeder.
Listened to
Cared for
Nurtured.
Until you believed that it mattered.
It doesn’t matter.
You do.
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