You left earlier,
And now I'm left with the worst of it all
And that is the silence
You leave in your wake
And the whisper of I love you
As you walk through your apartment door
And I smile through the bitterness

Goodbyes seem permanent,
So I always go with a "see you later"
After you agree, you walk away
And I hear you sigh
Because we both know that
Neither of us want to leave

When I get home, I lay in bed alone
and think about the time we've shared
It's been eight months today

I'm mising the feeling
Of you playing with my fingers
Until you fall asleep
And I miss the inconvenient locks of hair in my face
That I try to breathe through and ignore

I want to bury my face in your neck
And hold you through the night
Keeping you safe from any danger
That may lurk in the shadows

But I'm in bed by myself
Without you to hold on to
Those "see you later"'s
Only get harder every time

I sleep, restlessly

the slits on the wrist make pits void of flesh that is now ripped. **** whats happened to kids. instead of opening vanes open your heart and pour it out to someone you trust. i express this with your best interest in mind find someone who’s ears are funnels and let your soul out. cuts on the wrist won’t release you from these demons that taunt you it will only further haunt you.

A long night
Heels that could ****
Feet sore
Make up smudged
A dam of tears built
Trying to keep it in
Long drags of a cigarette
Dancing, isn’t that supposed to be fun?
Kissing, shouldn’t you like that person?
We leave the dance
We walk aimlessly
He tells me about you
He tells me about how he loves him
He tells me about how he likes you
He cries out a laugh of pain
What is one to do?
I watch her
Anger rolling off of her in waves
She yells out
“Why aren’t we drunk
Why aren’t we high
Why aren’t we so ****** up
I want to be on cloud nine”
I say nothing
I breath in my nicotine
And whisper to him
About my love
My love that loves me not
I whisper about how I wish I could throw myself into not liking him
I whisper to him about how
I hate myself
As we amble into a fast food place
I cry
Codys face haunts me
It was to be fun
A long night
Heels that could ****
feet sore
Make up smudged
My dam of tears broke

I broke
I found a way
To break
Almost every promise I have made
In a matter of a day
I managed
To
Get
So
Messed
Up
My arms
Are red
And my
Thighs are raw
I’m laying back
Letting my pain
Melt away
Waking up
With a bad headache
And
A
Bad
Pain
All
Over

sometimes you're like homework
so confusing
and i just stare at you
absent-mindedly
hating you
yet you're important to me
it's so hard to finish you
and i lose inspiration every now and then
but when i get high as my grades
i come running back to you

i can't wait to graduate from school
get rid of this infatuation
we would be adults by then
and hopefully this mess will be sorted out