perhaps I’ve been searching for the person i’ve wished to be
keeping myself calm
trying to stay sane
perhaps it was supposed to be different for me
i knew a whole heart for only a second
i didn’t know i carried a broken heart until the broken pieces ripped open my skin
attempting to leave my body
i thought i carried a thick layer of skin
a fool
I’ve been trying to find something i don’t know
which side do you want, left or right?
i wanted both, a full heart
instead of choosing, it chose me
forced to leave the other behind
to watch from afar
it all grabbed me from behind while i was trying to do my best
stuck
standing in room full of people that see right through me
walk right past me
i collect my emotions and hold them tight in my hand
i open up my hand when im laying there alone
and i let the emotions express themselves all night
like a cycle i wake up the next morning and still no change
temporary relief from strangers i thought were friends
only to realize that medicine is dangerous
my past has molded me into the person i am
theres reasons for the present
theres stories behind my traits
i don’t know love, yet here i stand
giving my all to people
i could stop but its the only thing that heals my past
i could be angry but that would only bring back my childhood
the truth is changing things that could possibly help me
could allow my past to eat me alive
but my sadness overflows my body
and sometimes it floods the ones around me
i hate to see it happen
but this world is new to me
my life didn’t come with a manual
standing in an empty battlefield
i am my own enemy
-h.u

You smiled at the sky and
I smiled at you.
Your eyes were fixed at the bright blue sky
And mine at yours.

You looked at the world
And I looked at it as well,
But, through your eyes.
Your world is a big one
But my world is only you.

The garden seems empty
without the flowers.
And the flower,
it is empty without its scent.
Likewise, I feel empty without you.

Distance may separate us but
our hearts can never be apart.
Circumstances may not allow us to meet,
but our separation is not forever.

Our bodies are mortal creations
But our souls, they are immortal,
as well as connected.
Our hearts are linked,
through the red string of fate.

My eyes feel tired and my heart worthless,
when you are not around.
Happiness is being with you.
And surely,
Life is empty without you!

Every
small misunderstanding
the pain arises in me
never in feeling
but
in the form of images
that she moves few rows behind..

Why is that they can never seem to stay? Why is it always something wrong with me? Why is the feelings that I feel always go wrong when they're supposed to be real? Why is love so hard for me?  They leave they come and gone in a week. Is this normal tell me please because I just cant put my heart at ease.
You know catching feelings are easy. Me Loving someone it comes easy. They don't have to do much but see me. So Why can't it work out for me? You know I just cannot take it. The fake ****. The lies it's all breaking. They come and go every weekend so please tell me why won't someone come see about me. Come see about me.

Alan was my first love above it all. He had me there with him through it all. Knew if he ever needed anything I would be there but the love between us just kind of went bare.Fcked up and got pregnant and I wanted to keep it. Wanted to see the three of us just living in secret. You had other plans and they didn't include me. So why keep a baby if you didn't even love me?


You know catching feelings are easy. Me Loving someone it comes easy. They don't have to do much but see me. So Why can't it work out for me? You know I just cannot take it. The fake ****. The lies it's all breaking. They come and go every weekend so please tell me why won't someone come see about me. Come see about me.

Daylan was my next met him at a party. He called me cute and that's how it got started. We hooked up the first night and it was all great. Until he slowly started realizing I was a mistake. I started calling his phone He quit hitting me up. Had things to do...so I can shut up. Nowadays he just texts me because he just wants to fck. I know it's wrong and i know I shouldn't do it but there's something so comforting about another human.

Sean was my last and let me tell you girl. Fell head over heels I swear he was my world. Drove in his truck and he held my hand. Asked for nudes and i sent them even though I shouldn't have. I started to believe he was different because of the way that he acted. Made me feel like we could have some sort of attachment. The second we fcked is when it all went down because I can tell he just didn't want me around. Stopped answering texts don't reply to phone calls. I don't exist to you. Nope not at all.
Out of all the **** here I guess you could say I've learned three valuable lessons. 1- Don't force anyone to stay in you're life. If they wanna leave let them. It could possibly save your life. 2- Take time for yourself. Don't move on too quickly. Don't open your legs for someone that just calls you pretty. 3-Speak your mind and don't be a fool. Don't let them make excuses and let you be the fool. Whatever heartache is their you'll get through it eventually. Find someone who loves you and really fcking needs you. You'll get happiness eventually.

Fresh
Air
Now
Speeds

I've got this
condition

Indulge until
Blech

On a bad
<insert self indulgent excuse>

Blame it on
<that>

Blech.