Maybe I'm holding on to someone
who doesn't think of me anymore
Maybe I'm trying to force something
thats already run it course
Maybe I'm thinking and wishing
for something that's too good to be true
Maybe I should move on and figure out my life without you

Could you tell me that you hate me
could you tell me that you never felt a thing
before you tell me that it's over
I need you to tell me anything
to break my heart
to tear me down
to get me so mad over you, that I can just leave
before you tell me that it's over
Don't take it easy on me

I'm already the boy who loves you
but still I want you more and more
I guess things don't change
I have a heart of gold
but ill only see you in my dreams

I remember, so familiar
cool nights spent together
you and me locked in your room
wishing we could be 17 forever
only knowing each other, so familiar

forever is still rolling
we aren't 17 anymore
I haven't seen your room in quite some time
or you for that matter
and just like that, I'm left behind... so familiar

you use to be my sun
I use to be your Earth
now we are nothing but two moons
orbiting around different planets

I am 16
And I have found love in a
boy who is 5 years older than me.
He tells me he loves me and I
lose myself in him.
He breaks my heart, twice.
We still keep in touch.

I am 20
I have found love in a girl
with curly blonde hair and eyes
like the sea. She holds my hand
and sings to me, kisses my forehead.
We haven't spoken in a year.

I am 21
I think I have found love.
He doesn't acknowledge what we
are in public and he thinks insulting
me is funny. He kisses me like he loves me
though, so I tell myself it's enough.
He moved miles away; I think he was
just as lonely as I was.

I am 22*
She's the one. Her hair is never
the same color and sometimes
she laughs too loud. She has scars
that she regrets, but she's doing
everything she can to keep going.
She is me, and I am in love.

You were the only one who was ever real
I couldn't wrap my head around it quite as well as I could wrap myself around you
But it's all close enough
Have you ever lost something real?
I'm not quite sure how this will feel
Because even the fake ones hurt sometimes
Even the fakest ones can leave you wrapped in a dark cloud with no silver lining visible
I wonder what your real storm will bring
When you finally decide to destroy me in your path
A full on massacre of sorts
I'm sure
I'm sure the pain will be just as real as you were
As this was
Is
I'm sure