Someday I'll be good enough for you.

maybe soon,
maybe never.

Or I'll be better.
And you'll want me,
I know you will.

I'll probably laugh about it.
because I don't need you,
I never did
You were just a bump in the road.

You are like the ocean.
Beautiful, yet deadly.

You take my breathe away,
as the ocean does to many people.
You drowned me.
Breathless.

So don't you dare ever say you've never killed anyone.
Because you left me hopeless, to drown.
*You killed me.

There wasn't much left of me,
after you destroyed me.
Set my heart on fire,
flames burning.

You, my dear, have a heart so cold.
So cold, it puts shivers down my spine.
Everytime you say my name,
it sends chills running down my body.

But you broke me. Destroyed me.
And you don't destroy the ones you love.

Pain, so demanding.
Always needing to be felt.

Why?
Why can't I just be alone,
without the pain,
without the agony.

You can pull out that razor,
slice all you want.
You're still gonna feel the pain.
You're still gonna feel the hurt.

I'm stronger than that pain.
Better than that pain.

But that is a lie.
Because pain, pain will always be felt.

Death is a scary thing.
So why is it that I'm more afraid to fall in love, than to die?
Why is it that my fear of living is greater than my fear of dying?
Death is inevitable.
*But so is he.

It's a funny thing right?
Love, I mean.
We fall in love just to get broken.
But after we have fallen apart, why do we run back to the one that crushed our soul?
I still want you,
And I miss you.
God I hate you,
At the same time I love you.
*You