I realised what the truth is
But now its too late

I wish i could go back
Back to that date

Back in the time
When i said that yes

The time when
my life started to mess

Now
I do not smile,i do not laugh
My happiness is gone a far apart
There was a time when you were in my heart
God help me please in beginning a fresh start

Every morning you rise it's wicked sunshine
Laying next to me makes
Your manhood rise
And you brag
It's like waking up
To sleeping
Beauty
Every morning I rise
Im moisted
At the thought of you
Leaving
I'm aroused at the
thought
Of me leaving
So you slide Between my
Thighs
Heavy breathing
Two pumps As I stroke
My **** moaning loud
And screaming  
So when I say your the
Best
I'm feeding your ego
I'm starving for the truth
But I'm deprived
Staying because I love
You and leaving because I love me
So when you read this maybe
You should have ****** me
STOP
******* me
OR
caressing me
You shouldve feed me truth
Offered me knowledge
Trying to create happiness
With the person that's destroying
My ego
Unworthy Of love
So
My *** Became Good
Enough
See I was fighting you
To make you stay
But the truth is i was fighting my self
To walk away
So Goodbye ****
Boy
Please Stay Away

Isn't it ironic?
That you penetrate the
deepest & darkest
corners of my life.
When I swore you wouldn't trespass
in areas that are off limits even to myself.


a.n.p.

may it be singly focused
undivided
seeing only You
as sovereign
to be revered
and worshiped

my only hope
my only source
my strength
my peace
my life

my only expectation

cynthia poems 2017