As I sit here in silence
I think
Was not going thru with certain plans really worth it?

Was telling someone
About my depression
What really saved me?

Because here I am
Going thru exactly what I went thru
2 years ago

The trigger never seemed so close to me
And no I don't mean a gun
I mean the thing that will send me over edge
Is right at my finger tips

Your smile is the moon
It brightens even the darkest of times
Your laughter is a wind chime on a windy day
Loud and cheerful
Your hugs are blankets
Warm and comforting
Your voice is a soft breeze
Singing me goodnight lullabies

Soon, Your smile is a blank canvas
Your laughter is a small wave
Your hugs are cold
Your voice is a loud unbearable e song
And I sing you goodbye lullabies
as your breath becomes chimney smoke

Tears
Screams
Silence

Hurt
Pain
Serenity

Anger
Hatred
Happiness

Im falling apart
I can't keep going through this
I'm fine

One
Two
Three
The man runs
Four
Five
Six
The girl screams
Seven
Eight
Nine
He grabs her
Ten
Eleven
Twelve
She is unconscious
Thirteen
Fourteen
Fifteen
He carries her through a crowd
Unnoticed
Sixteen
Seventeen
Eighteen
Only he knows what will happen
Nineteen
Twenty
He got her

The word love is tossed around these days
There is no meaning

But if you find someone who means it even more than you do, cherish them.
It may be one of the only chances you'll get.

Help
Do anything

Help
Save me

Help
Where are you

Help
I'm drowning in my thoughts

Help
They're eating me alive

Help
I've waited so long for you

Help
You never showed

Help
I'm pulling the trigger