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Robin Russell Jan 2018
Shook off the cold monotone and dreamed of something more
Recalled bright memories standing firm on fragile pages torn.  

In my mind I hear songs that take me back to that place
The words are important yet they’ve been all but erased.

Remembering days draped in clothing that happiness wore
And the praises whispered softly…and the promises we adored.

Gazed through a golden goblet and watched the bubbles rise
Looked up and thought of you as I searched the night skies.

Do you know that I still think of you nearly every day?
Can’t help but lean on you when I think there’s no way.

Tonight I’ll raise my glass to the sky and look up to the moon
Shed the skin of the past because there’s simply no room.

You’ll wink at me from that distant star, as you always do
And remind me to live with gratitude for all that is new.

I love you.
An homage to people I love and miss very much.
Robin Russell Dec 2013
'Twas the night before Christmas, and all through the house,
Not a creature was stirring, not even my spouse.
Sheba was sleeping quietly on her special little chair
And Oscar was snoring loudly like a hibernating bear.

I munched on Danish butter cookies and sipped some wine
While I typed this silly poem, trying to make it all rhyme.
I thought of Christmas memories made special every year
Full of love, lots of laughter...with people I hold dear.

I miss my parents and grandparents oh, so very much
But I feel them surround me with their sweet angelic touch.
Especially my mom, who made Christmastime so bright
Knowing she's with me always, I feel the warmth of her light.

Something I pondered as I played with words to rhyme:
"Cheap Danish butter cookies are tasty for $2.99..."
Back to the task at hand, before I drift off to sleep (I hope)
Heed the words I'm typing, although they're not from the Pope:

Be present in the moment with the ones you truly love
Forgive those who hurt you (though you'd like to give 'em a shove)
Give yourself a break for the mistakes you may have made
(You know, that cliche about turning lemons into lemonade.)

In the still of this moment, take in all of your blessings
Drink plenty of eggnog, eat turkey and lots of dressing
Make the most of this one day to be light and not cuss
Life goes way too fast...slow down and enjoy Christmas!

The End.

(I'm also out of cookies.)
I couldn't sleep in the wee hours of Christmas morning. I was piddling around on Facebook, eating cheap cookies and drinking some wine.  I thought of the family members I miss so much, especially this time of year. Then, I got inspired...sort-of.  My little pram was a big hit among Facebook friends.     :-)
Aug 2010 · 734
Waiting to Bloom
Robin Russell Aug 2010
At that very moment, somehow you know
You look at me just so and emotions overload
All this time I'm wondering where you've been
It's long overdue and I'm longing again.

You're the only one who gets this right
Will you make this the perfect, restless night?
Don't need my dreams; I can thrive without sleep
For I bloom when you share your secrets with me

Every time I think you've reached my core
You peel back the petals and uncover more
Just when I'm sure my adrenaline's drained
You recharge my soul; like the first time... again

The perfect rose, it blooms only once
The scent, the beauty, angelic to touch
Though the thorns it hides may cause us pain
You'll risk it with me; it's worth the gain

Take hold of my hands; read into my eyes
You're the one who fuels this unstoppable drive
We'll get there together and rise with the moon
Don't hesitate now; I'm waiting to bloom.
Aug 2010 · 7.8k
Law of Attraction
Robin Russell Aug 2010
I dreamed it, I willed it, that's how it should be
That the law of attraction would bring you to me
But now that you're here I've got to confess
I'm not sure I'm up for this kind of success.

You're the only law I'm willing to follow
Everything to this moment suddenly rings hollow
The voice of your soul commands me to move
With reckless abandon I'm ready to prove

I feel the need to break all the rules
What I'm learning from you isn't taught in school
One smile from you and I color outside of the lines,
Forget about bedtime and drink too much wine

Your laugh drives me to run all the red lights
Skip barefoot in snow and stay up all night
Kiss you in public, confess most of my sins
To hell with sportsmanship... I'm out to win

The reason you've come is the law of attraction
And there's nothing that brings me more satisfaction
That I'd feel this way for you is so unexpected
I understand now how my soul was neglected

Your interest draws out in me every cliché
You started this game... are you ready to play?
Ignoring all the signs that it can't be done
Rules are made to be broken; that's half the fun

Your hand in mine gives me all that I need
To take more chances...risk making a scene
Your eyes convey more than your lips can say
Reflecting the promise of more on the way

Supernatural forces are infinitely stronger
And I could not have waited a moment longer
We were meant to create this breathless reaction
The only rule I need is your law of attraction.
Jul 2010 · 799
Three Images
Robin Russell Jul 2010
I have but three small images of you
(Besides the one buried deep in my mind)
Two of the photos you gave to me once
And one you’d never guess I might find.

Those photos, tucked away for me alone
Give me hints about who you were then
And how you view your life right now
I think often about what might have been.

When you were such a young and serious man
Could I have made you laugh once in awhile?
I know I would have fallen for you even back then
And skipped twenty-some years of living in denial.

And then there you are again at…maybe 32?
Mischievous eyes masking a soul easily hurt
Would I have used a dozen or more excuses
To pass by your office with intention to flirt?

I study the last image far more than the other two
It’s fairly recent, I’m sure, and it makes me want you
I wonder who had you smiling like that
I want the chance to have that effect on you.

Then there’s that memory that I hold close inside
Unlike the others, it can’t fade, because I keep it alive
With a lifetime imagined as if it had come true
Filling in those decades among three images of you.
Apr 2010 · 968
Take Me At Face Value
Robin Russell Apr 2010
You won't be comfortable with what I'm about to say
How you won't acknowledge what you really need
It's not the fear of failure that keeps you away
It's that you can't imagine the pleasure of succeeding.

I'm praying that you'll come around
Because your heart's already true
Just take a risk and convince your mind
I will accept you at face value.

I want to study every single freckle
Because they promise more days in the sun
I want to watch how your eyebrows move
When my hair comes all undone.

I'll watch your lips say all the proper things
While your eyes can't hide what you really mean
They'll give me glimpses down deep inside
And reflect on what you're really feeling.

I'll touch your nose with the tip of my own
And breathe in what you hold back from me
And tell your ear what it wants to hear
Until I convince you to trust in me.

I'll trace my finger around your face
Especially the lines that frame your eyes
Directing me to the places you've been
And the ones I'll visit with you in time.

Picturing you now, chin in the palm of your hand
Pondering why you sacrifice so much to stay true
The universe couldn't shout more loudly at you
Just do it now. Take me at face value.
Apr 2010 · 695
Your Roots Are Showing
Robin Russell Apr 2010
Unlocked the door, back home at last
Insanity of the workweek had finally passed,
Kicked off the heels, slipped out of the dress
Let down my hair; my mind at rest.

Unhooked the pearls behind my neck
Looked in the mirror and began to reflect
Not sure at first what I started to see
And then my reflection spoke back to me.

"Hey, girl," she said, "Your roots are showing.
Don't deny the winds of change are blowing.
Wear that façade as much as you like.
But down in your soul you know I'm right."

That image spoke the truth before I did
Getting back to the roots I grew as a kid.
In faded blue jeans and bright Mexican tops
Bare feet in the summer and a tangled blonde mop.

"That blissful flower child never went away...
She just hoped you'd eventually come back and play."
She smiles at me in the most curious way --
"Hang on to me this time; don't let it get away."

You can mask your roots a number of ways
But sooner or later they'll come back to stay.
Let them grow again in the warmth of the light
With your roots exposed you'll know what's right.
Apr 2010 · 914
On the Line
Robin Russell Apr 2010
No one's putting me on the spot
Except the one I'm standing in now
I can see from the edge of reality
As far as imagination allows

What happens if I step just over the line?
Because...I think I'm already there
With a hint of what's beyond this gate
It's almost more than I can bear.

I didn't draw this line in the sand
The rules were set before I arrived
He convinced me this where I belonged
But I see now that it's all contrived.

I could stay and color within the lines
The boundaries he's placed on me
But I've taken the risk and stepped across
And indeed the grass is much more green

He was busy keeping me within the lines
When a force came through from God knows where
Then the lines were blown and disappeared
And all my senses were alive and finally aware.

Now his insecurities no longer contain me
I'm putting myself on the line
I know in my heart it's the step to take
Toward truth. With love. For what is mine.
Apr 2010 · 803
Clutter in the Attic
Robin Russell Apr 2010
Lately I just can’t seem to clear
The clutter from my attic
Can’t help but climb those well-worn steps
Again and again and again and again.

Bare feet feeling the crack in the ladder
Being careful where I take a step
Can’t afford to slip and fall, not now
I could do without more bruises.

Fragile cobwebs of an interesting past
Sticking feather lightly to my head.
But the more I try to free myself
The more they tangle in my hair.

Stepping over the history that made me
On pages torn softly, through faded color images
In history-scented albums, on so many faces
The hopes and dreams they wished for me

Somehow, I think…I know they understand
I’ve been compelled to start down a different path
There’s something up here that I want to find
Just once, I think. That would be enough.

Tears in warm and random patterns
Splashing on top of what I thought
Was an ancient layer of colorless dust
Think I just stirred it all up again.

That baggage I had convinced myself
I carried out forever and a day ago
Somehow found its way back up here
Guess I haven’t let it go, after all

And when I try just one more time
To clear out the attic, once and for all
I find myself tripping hard over you
Again and again and again and again.

Thought maybe I could box you up
And set you aside like everything else
That I’m not sure I can handle.
But I can’t. And I won’t.

Now pull the cord; turn off the light
Then take my hand in yours
Let’s help each other out of here
The clutter will sort itself out.
Apr 2010 · 784
The One
Robin Russell Apr 2010
Pulled up the warmth that blankets my dreams
Slipped into sleep to envelop my needs
I replay one moment again and again
With not one waking answer as to where or when.

I’ve imagined one scene a thousand different ways
So where is the one who simply isn’t afraid?
Who brings to life one dream in original words
And shares it with me as it needs to be heard?

Somewhere there’s one who ignores the fears
Takes charge of what’s right and makes it clear
One embraces the longing that comes in the night
But lets it go freely when the answer is right.

One comes in waves and drenches my soul
Then vanishes for days…keeps me on hold
Am I one in a million…or one of a few more?
Acknowledge the truth and open the door.

How does one separate fact from the fiction?
With one sheltered life full of many contradictions
You hesitate to take just one painless chance
When you desperately need that one breathless dance.
Apr 2010 · 392
Takes Nothing Away
Robin Russell Apr 2010
Watched you turn and walk away like that
We just stood there, not knowing how to react
Tried to speak but the words wouldn't come
The time arrived and we all came undone.

More often you have a distant look in your eyes
But I'd like to think somehow, down deep inside
You know you're the reason for everything here
And when you're ready to leave we'll still be near

Your face still expresses what you cannot say
Time cannot be so cruel as to take that away
Surely you'll keep with you the best of this place
Leave behind the baggage that we'd all like to erase

From 11A I watched the city slip away
Through filtered clouds and sunlight on an extraordinary day
I looked down on everything I still believe is home
Couldn't maintain my composure; I just let it all go.

I've no choice but to believe with patience and faith
An inexplicable passage will lead you to grace
We can't change the outcome, but it takes nothing away
You'll live on through us and we'll make our own way.
I wrote this as I was sitting on a plane, flying back home, after  having moved my father to an assisted living facility.  I started grieving his loss that day...not the day he died in 2009. We were very close.  I loved him so much.  He was buried with full military honors at Arlington National Cemetery.  I am so proud of him.
Apr 2010 · 493
Robin Russell Apr 2010
Think I'm crawling out of my skin
Or maybe I'm finally settling back in
Completely foreign and absolutely right
Full moon lit up my dreams last night.

Out of control and not wanting to stop
Getting higher but not quite reaching the top
Feels so unfamiliar but not at all untrue
Not sure if I'll ever recognize the clues.

Awakened with the hope of something more
Dressed in the clothes that happiness wore
But somehow they still didn't fit just right
Got off the ground but never took flight

No patience for a transition to come along
I'm taking that walk and it won't be long
You cannot come with me for this trip home
I understand now I have to take it alone.

Time inches me up against this wall
Summer burns more quickly toward fall
Feels perilously close to disaster
Got limited seasons to find my answer

If you could understand the words to the song
And face the fears we've both had all along
I've faced them all and I'm finally graduating
You've got to let go; stop make me waiting.
Apr 2010 · 631
When Did You Know?
Robin Russell Apr 2010
When did you feel like you couldn’t quite breathe?
Deep down inside you knew it wasn’t make-believe
That your very soul you thought was gone with the breeze
Crept up from behind and knocked you to your knees?

What did you see, when you looked into those eyes?
The dreams you almost ended at once materialized
You met the kindred spirit that eluded you for years
And everything once cloudy became gloriously clear.

How sweet did it taste when your lips began to touch?
Only now you can imagine wanting something so much
Every time you lean in close for just one more kiss
It’s one move closer to the life you’ve sorely missed

Why, despite the risks, do you listen to your heart?
‘Cause the consequences are worse than ever getting caught
To go on living…knowing you let it slip right by
You’d never truly know what it was to be alive.

Where is it written that you get just one dance?
That pure, unclouded paths lead to passion that lasts?
What makes you whole arrives when you expect it least
And makes its way down a much less traveled street.

Who knew that you’d rekindle such a rush of desire?
It’s been too many years since I felt this inspired.
When I thought I should leave but my heart wouldn’t move

…that’s when I knew.
Apr 2010 · 955
If I Never
Robin Russell Apr 2010
Seems to me that living large is far too overrated
When I hit the wall it became far too complicated
When it stopped being fun I was altogether numb
Looked over my shoulder; couldn't see from where I'd come

Been driven forever toward everything I thought I wanted
Believed that's what mattered.... but now I'm just exhausted
Not sure these days who I was trying to impress, anyway
With a false sense of success I could never break away.

In the chase to have it all I became overextended
Seeing it clearly now, it's not the life I intended
If I never have the chance to tell you face-to-face
Your touch on my heart opened a place of grace

My thoughts are filled with hope and contrition
For what I know is the truth is quite the contradiction
The life I created for myself was completely untrue
Then I knew what it could be when I came to know you.

Should our eyes never meet, you'll not see my gratitude
But I can tell you, at least, so it's clearly understood
Your gifts have inspired a soul worth exploring
My appreciation grows for a person worth knowing.
Apr 2010 · 648
Learning to Slow Dance
Robin Russell Apr 2010
Understanding now how you’ve been bringing me along
Took me time to learn the words of your favorite song
Impatience makes me blind and it often leaves me clueless
I’m letting you lead me now…with slightly feigned duress

More comfortable now with the way you take the chance
You catch me off guard and ask me if I’ll slow dance
Then you gently take my hand and lead me to the floor
Pull me close, arm to waist, and now I can’t ignore

When I try to move too fast, you spin me toward the door
Then you reel me right back in so we’re closer than before
In those moments, when we’re dancing, everything goes dark
Save the music, and your breathing…and the rhythm of our hearts

Tried to tell you, more than once, that I’m stepping on your toes
That I should leave…this isn’t easy…it’s something we both know
Then when I think you’ll end the dance, you take another twirl
And whisper softly in my ear, “Just one more go-round, baby girl?”
Apr 2010 · 414
Opened Me Up
Robin Russell Apr 2010
What you have done to me
I can't begin to comprehend
I try my best to contain myself
But my soul is stripped and spent

Two decades of emotion buried
Stirred back to life by your light
An expected, exquisite gift
And a curse come every night

I concentrate hard to clear the storm
But inside I feel an unsettling warmth
I feel you pulsing through my veins
How long can I ride this emotional wave?

Breathing in a dose of quieting calm
Yet it escapes and leaves me desperate
With just one song you've opened me up
Still apart but no longer separate.

I know in my soul that you feel it, too
You don't know me at all... yet somehow you do
Forces of nature move beyond our grasp
You'll come to me then.... I'll know you at last

Each day I live intoxicated
An illness I won't unburden
And as I spill my soul on paper
I am convinced; I'm all too certain

You're no longer alone where your heart resides
Search for me; find me - I've no place to hide
I need the resolution only you will provide
You've opened me up, now take what's inside.

— The End —