Why do i put so much hope in some things?
Why do i feel and care so much for some people?
I'm so stupid. Stupid, stupid stupid.
How could i ever believe that you may like me?
How could i ever believe that these moments between us
were special to you like they were to me?
That they brighten up your heart like they did to mine?
These days, I'm so exhausted and sad that i started not to care
about anything and anyone anymore.
The only thing i can't stop is my mind and my thoughts about you,
while you didn't even think about me once.
I hate this world, i hate this universe, i even hate myself.
I hate me for not appreciating you so much earlier,
I hate me for being so blind.
You treated me like i'm the most precious human out there,
you made me feel alive again you made me love you. No.
You made me realize that there was always something.
That i always had loved you, but i didn't realized it.
Until you hold my hand.
Sometimes I still can feel your hand in mine, the warm
embrace which made me feel safe.
Which made my heart stop for a second.
This was one of the most precious moments i've ever had
and oh hell it makes me so sad.
Am i the only one who felt this connection between us?
Do you care for me like i do for you?
Or did i put my hopes too high again?
I just need a sign, a little sign.
Should i fight for you, for us?
Or should i give up everything?
Yet i feel so lonely. This feeling is slowly killing me.
I'm alone with this, nobody would understand it.
So i'm sitting here alone, thinking about you and waiting
for the night to come.
I will look up to the starry nightsky, i will think about you and i will know that you're under the same sky like me.
i will hope that you maybe are
looking at the stars as well, that you think about me too, just for a second.
every time i look up in the sky i see you