What is love?
It was everlasting question in my head...
But when I looked into your eyes
I knew the answer right away

My heart is filled with void
When you're so far away
I would give up my soul
To be with you everyday

The stars can not compare
To the blinding light you shine
When you're in front of me
I have to close my eyes

And only if I could
Give you everything you crave
Believe me that I would
And I promise that I will

To be loved is to be seen
At least that's what they say
And I'm seen
Just not in the way
That I've always wanted to be

They see me for my body
My youth
And revealing clothes
They don't know a thing about me
And that's why they easily get bored

And I'm sick of hearing
That my body is appealing
I need you to tell me
That you need me
And that you crave real feelings

You can't call it casual
When you kiss my forehead
And my scars
You keep on telling me I'm special
And that you want me by your side

But now I'm lost
At the sea that's made from my own tears
Suddenly I can't swim
And I'm drowning in your words

I'm lost
In the depths of my mind
I feel so lonely
Even with people by my side
I don't feel support
My life is falling apart
The choices that I've made
Make me lose my mind
You say you understand
And yet you can't say that you're proud
You can't comprehend
The things that I'm going through right now
It's hard to believe
Any of the words that come out of your mouth
I need you to say that It's going to be fine
And that I still have time
To figure all of this out

Your skin
        On mine
White wine
        One lie
Time flies
        Oh wow
Don't make me regret it now

Too late
      For talks
Just kiss
      Don't ask
Move closer
       And touch       
Our time has finally come

What if I'm not the person
that I always claimed to be?
What if I'm not as strong
as I'm pretening to be?
I think that I'm doing something,
that will totally destroy me...
But what should I do?
I can't really make myself avoid me...

And when I look into the mirror
I don't know who she is...
Who will she become?
Did she ever exist?

I get mad that easily
That I think I may be sick
My head is pulsing quickly
And I can hear my heart so clear

My legs are getting squizzly
I'm gonna start to scream
I can feel the rage
That's built up under my skin

My eyes are getting wet
My nails digged into my palms
I'm trying to hold back
So I won't regret those words

I'm keep trying to be calm
But my mouth is filled with swarm
A swarm of all the words
That I was keeping in my heart

I tried to be the wise one
Never told you I had issues
But when you said those lies out loud
My fists were close to being loose

I would pull your ******* heart out
And wait for it to stop
Then put it just right back up
And hope that you get lost

My mind is filled with questions,
I can't answer them all...
If everything's a lesson,
why can't I move on?

I wonder if they know...
how cruel they were to me?
If I had one wish,
I think that would be it...

And I'm still thinking,
of all the things they ever said...
I still can feel the pain,
deep inside my chest...

And after all this time,
I'm sure of what to say.
But they won't come back,
because I wouldn't let them stay...

I think I'm too ****** up,
for anyone to ever love me...
If I could turn back time,
I would never let them hold me...