I say stop
but of course you go.
I tell you what I don't want
but I know it's what you do.
I can't help myself
it's you.
But I'm trying to say,
I can't want you,
I don't want to.
Because I no longer trust
that I can trust my heart with you.
I can't trust you with my heart.
At least,
that's the only thing you've showed me is true.
If anything
you've taught me
to do everything in my power
not to love you.
But still
somehow
I do.

But oh my gosh
I don't want to.