I've woken up haunted by the ghosts of my own demons. An ominous presence lurks just outside the edges of my peripheral vision. The impending chaos hovers over my head like an untapped thunder cloud. The fragile calm inside my head is eerily similar to an abandoned hospital. Each room holding the possibility of a new fear, Threatening to burst forth like a jack-in-the-box. I know I've arrived. There's no direction, no forks left in this road. I must move forward. My next step will take me right off the edge of this cliff. I can't see the bottom, but somehow know that once I reach it, I'll survive. The forces holding me back are the vacuum of a vortex. ******* with all their might, pulling me back to the past. That past. That déjà vu. That endless pulse of a lifeless cycle. Just one step. Inches! I will myself to move, Paralyzed in my current existence. The nightmare is a lie, I am awake. This is the lull, This is the calm before the storm.