I have failed again Doomed to live out my existence In a shell of betrayal and self afflicted heartbreak Knowing that I wasn't enough for you Knowing that, despite my problems Somewhere, two souls meet in infinite embrace And the sword of jealousy pierces my knotted guts
Every time I hear your name my body shakes This pain is no longer emotional It strikes my core and shatters all I have built My knees weaken and my chest tightens My head hurts and my tears flow without asking It happens randomly throughout the day My collapses are uncontrollable
Stupid things remind me of you Like bikes, and guitars, and cigarettes And Law and Order and Friends and Eric Clapton And pipes and aches and organic food And kisses and touches and holding you Mostly holding you with the reassurance of your voice Saying I will never lose you