i am nostalgic for the past, the past that we hadt and the almost happy memories we shared, painful memories that will always be caged in my mind and heart. and sometimes, this nostalgia is too overwhelming and unabareable, so i get the urge to be sentimental for the briefest moment and wanting, needing a time machine. but then, again, i need to face the ugly reality, where you are no longer next to me, and you can't comfort me like you used to.