living in a way to avoiding the word failure in your epitaph, for a foreseeable reward in heaven, is like walking on eggshells without ever breaking out of your own shell.
The fear of failure is worse than actual failure. Failure teaches you to pick yourself up, dust yourself off and have another shot.
The context seems rather relevant now with what has happened this year. Here's to hoping you never give up and find the strength to start again.