The heart I hide


All your feelings went away;
They are fading in and out again.
Tried to push them out of your brain,
But some thoughts are yours to keep always.


All you ever tried to say,
Is lost upon the wind.
Every word; taken away.
Defeated, broken; silence is king.
Break apart and start again at the end;
Making and breaking friends.


Never lost so much to love;
Can’t seem to find anyone to hug.
Tears tell the world your heart is healing, so stay away!
Fear keeps you from being all that you are;
The lover has never felt so old and so grey.


Youth is a distant memory;
The man you used to be,
Is only a shadow of his former self…
Oh my God!  What is this fresh Hell?


Your heart is surrounded by spikes.
Nothing looks wrong with me, you’re right,
But if you saw the feelings I hold inside,
I think that you would join me as I continually cry.


Water trickles down my face,
Never to be replaced or wiped away.
Every piece of me wants to leave,
Because without love; I can never be.


Helping hands covet my heart,
But I am too poor to pay their charge.
Healing minds haven’t taken the time,
To figure out my empty mind.


I am a story never told;
No new requests for me to disclose.
I am wrapped up tightly in bandages, inside my head.
Nothing to lose when you have nothing left.


A quiet voice speaks to me;
Reminding me of who I could have been.
My conscious thoughts are my gravity;
Love promises kept, no reward ever seen.


Pretty eyes just pass on by…
They cannot see the heart that I hide.


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