I'm getting hyped up on caffiene and ignoring my problems just kind of trying to forget about everything that has happened and everything that will.
I'm tired of feeling neglected and turning my head away- pretending that what you've been saying hasn't made me want to just set mysef on fire and ignore my true desires.
I'm sick of running up into my bedroom to escape inside of my virtual worlds to ignore the lectures my parents have been screaming to me.
I'm so fed up with the fights my best friend and I get into they're pointless and make me want to turn away but I truly cannot because she means too much to me.
I'm saddened and physically effected by the way I think and feel about myself. I'm pretty sure if everyone somewhat enhanced the way they acted towards me I'd simply crack. Shatter. Fall to the floor in my own tears. Because I do not deserve such greatness nor do I deserve the hate that I've been recieving.
But maybe they'd be better off if that were to happen, they wouldn't have me around to complain and dump my feelings everywhere from the drain that is my mind
The only person that I really want to stay around for is someone who I really adore he is everything to me and more, in fact I dream about him a lot which is just lovely like the smile that he shows to me in pictures that I hope will sooner or later become mine, his, our reality. He's amazing.