How can you feel so much loss for something you never had in the first place

Thought you were telling me what you really felt; turns out you were saving face

New year
Fresh start
New someone
To break my heart

New plans
To make
New dreams
That will break

New me
Getting better
New you
By a greater measure

New way
To miss you
New way
To wish you knew

Same wishes
That you were there
Same realization
That you don’t care

Holes in my ears? 8.
But including the ones in my heart?
Or my soul?
Or my head?
Too many to count.

I punch holes in my ears
To mask the pain of the holes in my heart
That she created when she left.

hopeless romanticism
is an endless pit
of effortless falling
but reckless hypnotism

Waking up with a hangover is said to be one of the worst feelings in the world.
But waking up with a broken heart from the night before is much worse.
Drinking a warm cup of black coffee does not get rid of heartache like it does a headache.

You say you’re over me
But the number of times you check my Instagram say otherwise

You say you don’t think of me
But all you’ve written has us forever memorized

You say you don’t care anymore
But your mind still wonders if I’m doing better without you

You say you don’t want me back
But to get me back, you’ve planned what you could do.