On the pier

Somewhere between wishful thinking

And utter despair

I can still remember

your resentful stare.

The sadness that consumes us.

All the tears that we cried.

The times when you held my hand

And said the stars will never die.

We spoke about religion

We fought about the truth

Our shattered hearts now

Serve to us as proof



That good things always,

They always come to an end .



No matter how many years go by

If I really try

I can still remember

Our goodbye

We can no longer deny

But maybe we can close our eyes

And lie

That maybe good things don’t always,

They always come to an end.

Body of water
Light pink hue
Who would've thought
That at a time like this
I'd be missing you
Crown of silver
Heart of gold
All the stories you told
Disappear
Warmth of hands
Has now gone cold
What's the matter
Where's your soul

He bared his teeth
He showed a scowl
Turned to the moon
Let out a painful howl
He is the son
The son they never honoured
Left alone not to be bothered

I saw his scowl in the shadow
I heard his howls in the wind
Straining for air
He let out a gasp
I knew he was always there

He is the shadow in the darkness
He is the glimmer in the moon
He will destroy you
When he finds you
So you better run
You better run
Run soon

I was the cold one
To begin with
I was the one
Who you couldn't touch
Darling I pray
Forgiveness is key
But there is no time he's coming for me

He is the shadow in the darkness
He is in the glimmer of the moon
He will destroy you
When he finds you
So you better run
You better run
Run soon

I can't run I can't run
Time to face him
Run I can't run I can run
Forever chasing
I can't run I can't run I can't

Your eyes
So deadly in the night
Rip the seems of my mouth apart
Oh and sugary kisses have long since turned bitter
Papery touches never leave traces
But words are echoed deep in my skin
Can't you hear
The echoes of our love songs
Spinning round and round
Thinking we could've turned it all around
Your laugh
I can still hear in my dreams
Tensing my muscles
There is no right way to find a distraction
What a cursed fatal attraction
Papery touches never leave traces
But words are echoed deep in my skin
Can't you hear
The echoes of our love songs
Spinning round and round
Thinking we could've turned it all around
When I'm ready I'll say it
God I beg you don't make it think it
Overturned and done
But I can still see through the page
The traces of our bygone age
Light touches deep cuts
Sweet kisses numb hugs
No easy way to find a distraction
What an unfortunate fatal attraction
Papery touches never leave traces
But words are echoed deep in my skin
Can't you hear
The echoes of our love songs
Spinning round and round
Thinking we could've turned it all around
Round and round
Round and round
Round turn it all around

one, we bow our heads in a synchronised fashion
two, we circle each other, two swans in a lake
three, a hint of blush is seen on my cheek as you approach
four, arms stretched out
five, hesitation
six,  my arm meets yours
off we go in a whirlwind of music and footsteps
circle one, circle two, step step, circle, step
sweeping the floors with the ball gowns and frocks
breathing steady and you a little heavy
we feel the eyes of greedy onlookers watching
so much sound and yet barely noticeable
I wish for this to never end I wish for this to be forever what it was and what it is and what ill be I want stability I don't want falseness I want to recognise myself in the mirror when I wake up I want to feel the touch of love not the scorching agony of lust and most of all I want to be happy, just simply happy no strings attached. Stupid happy.
one, we bow our heads
two, we look away
three, I wonder if you understood the longing in my eyes.
four, a new hand approaches.

I have destroyed a beautiful soul
in  the midst of the fog
I reached out
with my tainted hands
and touched its purity
consumed by my own selfishness
I pulled it down with me
my demons became his demons
only now
when the seal was broken
and I clearly see
my fault and sin
burning in the perpetual loop of my memories
It had to be done
For you would never have known
and now you do
for the pain and realisation
forgive me
forgive me
forgive me

3 am came and went, and despite my greatest hopes I had remained the same, unchanged.