The stars always glisten
When the moon sings
The lonely song
That tugs on heart strings
Of wolves ever so faintly
A subtle tribute
The howl at night
And the sun weeps
For the moon has seen the sadness
In those who mask it under the light
Of the Suns rays
And in the midnight haze
When your mind is clouded
From the toughest of days
You can sometimes hear the song
The moon sings to you
We call it blues.

He asked me when will you come down to earth
But I have been chasing constellations from the day I was born
Torn between the world I'm on and the world I could be
Forever drawn to one sensation
One lust, to explore
He never understood that I needed to roam the great halls of history
Not the halls of a college so foreign to me that I could never call it home
Slow breath in
And his words of trust and love melt away
Slow breath out
He apologizes as he leaves the front door and melts away from my memory
I guess he never wanted to pack up and go
Like he said way before
The reality of the world hit us
But I haven't changed
And I will run and roam as I had before
Although the words of my lover hurt me
They didn't stop me
For I have been chasing constellations
Since I was a little girl
Over the hills and past the horizon
Up and up, until I'm no longer on earth
But around the time I reach the stratosphere
You're image and words will appear in my mind
And that is when I'll know that I'm leaving you behind
To chase after what I lust
Our love compelled to nothing but dust
And so the adventure begins

the drained eyes stare on
subtle and sad
whispers
arn't you glad to be alive
the dive into oblivion
has been postponed
save the date
for out fates are fixed
yet our hearts run wild
into the sunset and back again
with stories to tell
and songs to sing
about the king who wept
and the queen that left
the ****** prince that never left his castle
we are all stuck up in the tower
our souls slowly turning sour
from the pain of our own regrets
old men make bets
as we power on
yet her eyes
are drained
subtle and sad

I guess from all the words we could've said, we chose the ones that we'd never forget; you were worth it.

Your eyes are tired
your hair is grey
mother forgive me
for the times I’ve strayed

The moon is cold
but my heart is colder
was ****** and jealous
as I got older

So mother dear, won’t you forgive me
for all the time I came near to death
there are some things I still regret
from the day I packed my things and left

Your poor old heart
is all strung out
sining tales of days bygone
you told me Son don’t be your daddy
he was never here

Dear old mother
hear my cry
remember the days
you said you’d never die


So mother dear, won’t you forgive me
for all the time I came near to death
there are some things I still regret
from the day I packed my things and left

Your eyes were tired
your hair was grey
my heart is broken
you said you stay.

I thought the world would stand still when we kissed.
I thought id hear whispers of love in my ear
All I could here was an echo of my own subconscious
Telling myself to hold on to my wits
Because of love and rust and all that goes
your heart was never mine
and everyone know
The truth of bitterness and regret
Ill never forget your smile, your eyes facing the direction
that wasnt mine
At least you knew and so did I
That this was an illusion and a lie
of sweetness and with a taste of sighs
We depart with our goodbye
A clean break.

I have one addiction
And it comes and goes
But when if comes it stays
Like a creepy relative that just showed up at a family reunion and just won't leave until he is deceived into departing
My addiction is sadness
Sadness is addictive and it knows no bounds, it spills out like a sea of grey over your body slowly drowning you from within
And we all know the hymn of sadness
The tears burn tracks down cheeks and all you see is darkness
Engulfed in perpetual night you try to fight but a stone is placed on your chest and you forget to breath
Gasping for air
You struggle with cries of despair
The only soundtrack a sigh
And whilst bowie was wondering if there was life on Mars
I was buried ten feet under the earths core
Hoping for some cure.
There is no off switch
Just a mood switch
From grey to black and darker again
Comsumed by a black hole finding a new dimension a deeper way to isolate yourself some more
At least that's what I got from interstellar
Except there is no wormhole
There's just pure realization
No way to cheat yourself out of being sad
You keep going
But it's always the hard way
They said I should write
And so I did
They asked blue or red pill
One will make the world stand still
The other will speed it up
I told them I don't mean to be abrupt bit id rather still be true within my head than be floating with Angeles
Because all I'll get is numbness
And all that brings is nothingness
And if you know anything about nothingness
Then you know that it's hollow
And that path that your mother told you to follow
Has been long scorched from your memory
Because as the emptiness sinks in
Your essence withers
And evaporates
But I'm not afraid
Because at the end of that tunnel
Is a reminder to breath
And I'll remember my first breath as if it was my last.
I'm okay.