I feel like I am already a burden to the people around me
Why do I have to feel this **** thing...

If you see me laughing,
please dont laugh with me,
Because I am not laughing,
I am dry sobbing with a smile on my face,
because pain is so funny to me,
my own pain is so funny to me,
I always do that to myself,
I'm in pain,
so silent and so innocent looking but yet here I am,
laughing like a sociopath,
because I am so used to my own heart breaking.

I walk the same streets,
but I'm lost.

I talk to friends,
yet they are strangers.

I drink water,
yet I still thirst.

I eat,
but I get hungrier.

I see you,
but you're not there.

Why do I always think that you care for me, too?
Why do I always assume that I'm a part of your thoughts?

Why am I being so stupid...

I don't know what's happening
Every dark cloud dawns on me
They're swallowing me up
I can feel every pain in my veins

I wanna do something for it to go away
But somehow I want it to stay
I can't cry anymore, my eyes are dry
Can someone save me, please do try

No more words
*Just pain