words that are hard to say,
thinking it would ruin your day.
because of all the smiles you had,
i still want to make you glad.
but i know you know,
wherever my feelings go.
but you still smile,
even for a while,
even if you're slowly breaking,
even while your heart is aching.
i want to say goodbye
but my words come out as a lie.
whether it's loving you
or saying i do,
stop smiling,
  you're a fool.
  i only do bad things to you.

you're all that i think about,
            all that i dream about.
one day,
  you'll leave,
  but it'll give you a better day,
                                a better girl.
sometimes, i think
you're too good for me.
i'm too plain to be yours.
yet you'd say otherwise
and get mad at me
because you're so kind.
but your kindness is my problem
and the reason i distance myself from you.
i'm sorry for being stupid
but stupid is what i do best.
i don't deserve you,
  don't deserve us.
so i'll be the girl,
one day you'll hate
and could finally be relieved,
                               be happy.
while i, for you, would be happy,
                                         be sad.

At one glance,
  you entered my heart.
Trapped in this wonder
I become.
No words flow out.
I look at you in admiration.
Can you draw out the rest
   of what this heart has to say?