'take care of yourself better, sis'
'c'mon, lovi, eat more than one, for mom?'
'****, i'm sorry- i made you feel worse, ****...'
'no, no it's fine, lovi'
but i won't.
maybe if you paid more attention i-
i wouldn't be destroying myself inside and out.

why wouldn't i be?
i'm smiling,
i'm laughing,
i'm saying that i'm fine.
why won't you believe me?

i keep getting used,
over,
and over,
and over,
and over.
i'm over-overused.
when i was still usable,
you'd take advantage of me.
i was bait for a trap,
sometimes for me.
overused.
doesn't sound like a real word anymore.
it itself is overused.
i would like to start over.

I'M A FULL TIME *****.
A ******* *****.
A WORTHLESS PIG WITH NOTHING IN STORE.
NO SURPRISES,
NO LIFE,
NO MORE.
I HAVE NOTHING.
I AM A FULL TIME NOTHINGLESS *****.

how can i do
a n y
of this
when you're just
better?
.
.
.
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