Needless to say I was ******,
I was absolutely distraught;
craving time to scream and yell and cry -
only i couldn't, couldn't render myself vulnerable;
let anyone see me failing -
even as i brought the gun to my temple

i'm sorry i couldn't;
that i let you down
and broke your spirit -
left you out alone.
i'm not sorry i left;
stopped believing your lies
and playing your games
we were long overdue
a much needed goodbye.

what happens when i love you isn't enough
when it can't hold you together any longer
or fix the brokeness of your hearts.
what happens when you have to leave
save yourself and run
even if it means leaving your heart behind
what happens when goodbye doesn't
and leaving brought you closer together
will i love you finally be enough?

i know it's coming -
the gut wrenching,
life stopping heart break.
i can see it in his eyes
when he says i love you
and feel it in his arms
when he holds me at night.
even with words of comfort
and planning of our future
i know the end is coming -
wait patiently for him to come clean
and confess his love for her
for i am a storm,
and her a safe habor
and he wishes for peace

i love you isn't a strong enough word
it can't articulate how my heart flutters every time i see your face
or that when your arms are around me nothing in the world could be wrong
it doesn't describe the longing i have every moment that we're apart
or how i'd rather die than spend a single minute without you in my life
i love you does not contain the emotions i feel
it can't imagine the bliss that exudes when you kiss me on the forehead
or the giddiness of when you pull me in close and hold me like you'll never let go
it doesn't understand that kissing you feels more important than breathing
or all the ways you feel like home
i love you just won't work
there aren't enough letters in the alphabet to explain the way my heart beats for you
or the fear that festers inside and drives me insane when i think of you leaving
i love you will never be enough to make it clear how much you mean to me and the worth you've added to my life
but if you give me the chance i'll spend every day trying to make you understand

Skin laid bare, heart caged up.

We were told to feel,
But shut up.

We were told to do well,
But to keep quiet our skill.

We were told to live,
But given no life.

We are the new soldiers.

Our weapons are our words,
Our mind the ammunition.

We wage a war.

We are the most effective army,
for we will all **** ourselves.

Our battle will have no survivors,
But will be in no books.

There is a special place in history for us,
Outside it.

We will all be remembered but never spoken of.

We were not there at the start,
nor will we be at the end.

No one remembers the middle.

We are the new soldiers.

Skin
               Laid
                              Bare
                         ­                      Heart
                         Caged
       Up