it's kinda funny that every time someone asks me how he died
i know i have to tell them he was a ****** addict with a bad batch of ******
then autocorrect takes over -
and it's "he was a heroine addict with a bad ***** of a heroine"

one rehab after another - he tried to get sober -
but always ran back to drugs
one relationship after another - he looked for someone to save him -
but always ran back to me

maybe i'll stop trying to fix my auto-correct
******, heroine - what's the difference?
we both killed him in the end

i just want to keep writing about you forever
i have so many things to say about you
so many things left to tell you
how much i loved you,
how much you changed me...
but honestly, i think i just write to pretend you never left...

i keep telling myself i have to live for you
experience all the things you never got to
get married, have children and grow old in you honor
but i don't know if i can,
i never wanted those things,
i never dreamed those dreams
they were yours and so they became mine
i would have done whatever you had asked of me to tell the truth
i would gladly die for you
but i'm not sure if i can or even want to live for you anymore
not when you couldn't live for me.

I keep a picture of you on my phone,
But it's not the one you'd think ––
Not from the night when we met
Or of your goofy grin,
But the one from after your death.
I wasn't there. Never got to say goodbye.
And sometimes I forget that you're gone.
So I keep this picture saved to my phone
Of a face so withered and old ––
Barely recognizable, but it's all that I got
When you were all that I would have ever needed.

i'll give you my heart
if you promise not to break it,
it's been you from the start
and we'll be the ones who make it.
you're my sunshine
when i'm sad and blue,
i trust you with my life
and i'll tell you i do.
a world without you,
not one i want to see
for as long as you're with me,
happy in love is what i will be.

from the moment we met
you took my breath away
every time i think of you
i forget what i'm doing
it's like the world stands still
and it's only you and me
so how could you leave me?
i said always and you said forever