My mind became so weary.
Soul began to day dream ,
Dream of someone special.
Whom it was you .
Your bone structure was made for me.
Your lips fit perfectly fits mine.
Quite a love daze.

Everything I wish for ,
11:11 wish you are to me.
So completely true.
You are completely
buzzing all over my heart.
Quite a love daze.

There is no one like you,
I don't know what it is about you.
Buzzing all over my veins .
Making my heart quiver, and chest shiver
Day and Night
Thought of you and only you
Quite a love daze

True romance can be achieved as long as you are by my side.

Once I fell apart into a deep trance ..
That is where I saw your face,
my heart ache with love .
my soul filled itself with love.
my mind wire it's brain pieces with little snippets of love...
My lips began to taste love...
I'll never forget you.
I began to ***** my finger every day,
I fell into a darker dream each day...
Attaching myself to your needle...
Till the day there was no more blood to draw.
If love has many stories...
Then ours will be a memoir ..

Do you dream of world full of possibilities with no restrictions?"
He choked on asking me ... Was it such a hard question ? Every one dreams of a life with no rules and is on the adventure looking for the pursuit of happiness. His face heavily looked down into his notebook . I can tell he was drenched into every question he was going to ask me . He was curious about me ? My power and the kingdom I reigned. How can I reign a kingdom with no king . We can have it all ? Is it true? This theory may be tested , but my hypothesis is that you can only choose one thing to live with . It depends on deal you make with the devil. But I was walking devil in a dress with power awfully hard to conquer. And this man who is a multimillionaire , once a penniless reporter ,has captured my heart within minutes .

I lie here in darkness.
Hearing the broken cords of my heart
Each vein de attached from what use to be held by you.
The Cursive lines of my lips no longer speak your name
Or taste you...
Trying so hard to not think of the way you brought me into life .
Only for you to buried me again.
I shiver without your touch.
I go blind without your gaze
I miss you dearly.
You were a certain romance, my silhouette dances of remembrance.
I lie in darkness...

I have fallen into dark holes,
Sometimes about six feet underground,
But somehow you were close ..
I hear your whispers through every bottle my lips touched. Your words were engraved into my heart. A motivational promise , "move forward"I breathe and I climb up and break through.Just when I am about to heal ,I lose sight of you.
Time is not ticking..
I'm not ready...
Please tick soon...

Here I fall again into an ocean abyss
I float into a darkness where I dream.
Every single time I dreamt of what it felt like to kiss your lips again ,I can feel it in my veins.
Every single fiber of your touch.
It's my favorite remembrance circulating around my veins , injecting into my blood.
A motivational promise ,"  till next time we are both strong."I swim to shore ,
but time isn't ticking yet.
Please tick soon..

Here I go falling again into a buried casket.
Where I lay dead with a dormant heart and restless soul and heavy mind.
Maggots crawling around my body , frozen I laid.
My restless mind began to ponder on the fire you brought into my heart. Dozen of wildfires you caused , I have inhale smoke from you that slowly awoke me . I see dust in my eyes. I was impaired .. paralyzed .
Time isn't ticking yet again.

As the nights went , I was walking zombie waiting to be saved , in hands of everyone else but never you. I laid in this casket remembering tasting you at least once . It felt like a home I never had , a home I wished I had. A placement that my heart yearn. Your dark eyes and impeccable smile. My delicate heart full of maggots began to beat and shake . Thought of you makes me feel alive. I screamed every single moonlight hoping soon you will hear me..  Under a blue moon , my ***** eyes got blinded by a light. I heard the bells chime and the church clock tick.

"Tick tick tick tick"
My heart felt you closer,
"Tick tick tick tick"
No more falling or being buried,
"Tick tick tick tick"
My soul ignited , you were close to me,
"Tick tick tick tick"
I blindly looked at you and you looked at me.
I knew your promise was true with every impatient kisses  , you are here in the pouring rain where time ticks. Where the world spins.Hard to believe,
That you always were my muse.
My distance far lover
hidden in the cracks of my heart ,
rebuilding me.
"Tick tick tick tick "
And I love you....

Time....
What are you made of ?
Why do you tick every second?
What am I waiting for ?
Life has been nothing but a whirlwind.
Days longers, lives are getting shorter.
Time....
Do we really have control of you ?
Is it essential to follow you?
Do I have the time to question your powers?
I wonder when will you share your time with me....

I clenched along the trigger
What am I aiming for
Life flashes in my eyes
What am I aiming for
Ponder wonder over your eyes
Is that what I am aiming for
To shoot your thoughts of me
What am I aiming for
When I ponder over your lips
To shoot off the taste of your lips
What am I aiming for
When I ponder over your hands
To entice your touch with bullet wounds  
What am I aiming for
When I ponder over how my head laid on your chest
To shoot your lungs off so we don't breathe the same air
What am I aiming for
When I stared deeply into your heart
A heart that loved me so much
I put down the gun ....
I still want you to love me.

You promised me love,
While you break my heart
at the crack of dawn,
You promise me happiness,
While you inflict a scar in every memory.

I beg , let me be your everlasting light.
While you fill mine with darkness.
I say, please love me in way I love you.
While you take pieces of my soul.
And I cry , cry for the seasons to change
There you are stopping the time.
Rounds and rounds of ticks .
Recycle on unrequited love
Every night at break of dawn.

You promise me heaven ,
While dragging me to the gateway of hell.
You promise me comfort ,
While making me feel empty.

I taunt, let me be your every lasting kiss,
While you fill my lips with hate.
I yell, let me be the one you come home to.
While you run away to her...
And I pray , oh I pray for the pain to swell.
There you are injecting me with anesthetic.
Swelling over and over this unrequited love.
Every crack of dawn.

I fight, so many lies underline in my mind,
While you spoke love into my heart.
I protest, there's no love ,
While you confess to me this what I deserve
I sway I sway I sway for another shot
Drink and drink because of this unrequited love
Every crack of midnight.

I beg , beg, to forget this everlasting pain...

I can't put anything above your horizon ,
There's nothing that compares you .
Fooled around and fell in love with Karma.
Everything I did to others , you did to me.
Lie with me , lie to me , lie within me .
Every lonely night , I stay in a pool of my tears .
Lie with me, lie to me , lie within me.
Your lips speak blurred lines.
I hate you, I love you .
I can't put anyone above your horizon.

I remember
When I wanted the world in the palm of my hands.
When I crave for adventure
When I was hungry for experiences.
I remember
When I stood up for what I loved
When I push my body to the extreme
When I said no to the sad life.
But now I feel
Emptiness,
Useless,
colorless,
Now I want death on the palm of my hands
I don't no longer know who I am..

My heart bleeds blue at midnight. I heard owls hooting in my despair. Alone ,I lay naked underneath the beaming moonlight. I touch slowly my neck and close my eyes. Thinking of a predator I been waiting for a lifetime slowly slithering its warmth on my thighs.So preciously antagonizing my soul with its piercing eyes.It's breath is an intimidating musical hiss. I crave it's injection. Hiss between every piercing kiss.I touched myself harder as the owls hooted into the moonlight. I needed you. Imagining my predator teasing my heated skin with its cold fangs. Immensely waiting for its long hollow teeth to pierce me. While wishing, it instantly became the predator of my heart as it slither around my skin.The music began to start.Predator started to taunt, looking for the sweetest fatal bite.My soul began gasping harder, My predator, oh please prey on me harder.Slither uncontrollably, slither harder as my breaths change heavily. Predator inject itself slowly through every bite.Oh I am in love.It was perfect dosage. This is love. Intoxicating every blood vessel of my body.Every bite,I felt more yours. I instantly became weaker, your bite was the perfect dosage for the ****. It was perfect dosage.The perfect poison. This was love. The perfect *******. Underneath the moonlight , vivaciously sweating naked I screamed. Longing more for your touch.The owl hooted once more, morning has come.
I awake , I was loved for the first time.

With its injection ,
**The predator righteously own my crimson heart

The road stretches far beneath me
Diverging into two cross paths.
I linger to think where to go.
I decide
With the right I go
Looking for you, in longing to hold you again
As i walked down this right road to relieve the wrongs.
The screams, the brutality of what was called love once.
I cannot break free from the chains of your heart.
I cannot think for myself always winding up on the right road to relieve the wrongs.
                  *  I am a weak prisoner.

I am falling into the dark side , my heart is restless and my mind is caving in disaster.
Who am I .
I know my name, but is it my name?
Who am I.
I move, I shake, I cry, I speak
But cannot love myself or anyone.
Who am I really?  
I am lost , broken, melancholy heart
Singing the blues under the red moon.
Who Am I ?

I let my hair brown flow among the wind
As we cruise with views of the ocean.
I raised my arms in the air .
Happiness hit us like bullets
Piercing into our love like needles.
Life without a care ,
We defeated the night
With long conversations
Time wasn't an issue
Wasting each other nights
Life without a care.
Might as well start living forever.
I was your darling ,
And you were my sugar.
I can't help to think
about much
you imprinted my life
Life without a care.

You're always in my head.
Like a catchy song .
Reappearing over and over again.
Miles never separate you from me .
From my mind .
I can never be at ease.

You started a war without armor ,
Without a brain.
You sought to break me .
You fought till you got to the top
Abused others to reach my stepping stone.
Torturous moments
I can't breathe through every anchor you embarked on me

I drown into an abyss
But you didn't consume me

Stripped me into shreds.
Malicious laughter roar through your throat.
But you didn't consume me.

You became the memoirs of battle
Where I could have surrender.
You didn't consume me .

I was the chosen one .
Tear me into pieces
Vile touch scraped my innocent.
You didn't consume me.