I'm sorry I can't be everything you wanted
After everything you have been for me
I guess all I've done is cause disappointment and hurt
This is not how love should be.
I hope one day you find better
Someone who will cherish every inch of what you can give
I hope one day you'll forgive me for being so selfish
And maybe you can learn to love me different
And we can start anew
And maybe I'm just being naive
But please don't doubt that I have loved you

the hands that hold me

with the tenderest of touch

are the hands that hold me tightest

and my soul they will crush

Hopeless was the look on your face
forgot is it now
as I wait for you to remember
I realize
what once was can only be then
forever gone
are the moments
we shared.

If only you could see
how
    much
                
            you've


br
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k
e
      n


                         me.

To whom this may concern,

I forgive you.
Even if you haven’t apologized just yet;
maybe you never will.
But I have held this hurt in my chest for far too long
and I don’t want this rotting away my naive heart.
I’m writing this with cathartic desperation and a patience
that only comes from being angry for so long.

I want you to notice the first sentence I wrote earlier.
“I forgive you.” Note that I did not say “it’s okay,” or “it’s all right."
There’s a distinction between what I did say and what I could have.
I said that I forgive you. When I say that,
I acknowledge that you have wronged.
You have hurt me and we both ought to recognize that.
If I’d said “it’s okay,” I would be subtly telling you that
“whatever you did, it’s okay, it’s all right.”
I didn’t say it’s okay because it’s not.
Whether or not you come to terms with it
is not my business anymore.

I hope you find yourself within these words
and make peace with yourself, and I hope
you don’t make the same mistake with another individual.

Without Wax,
Someone Whose Scabs
Have Only Recently Become Scars

*P.S. I may have forgiven you
but that does not mean that I trust you just yet.