Mercy

Mercy Jul 8

@niamornimo

Its funny that writers live their lives on pen and paper,
Bloggers, poets, journalists even preachers.
I say this not because I've seen them but because I'm one.
The thing that people call content is an outlet of our lives as writers expressed.
Their are days when words flood out of our minds to paper like geniuses with numbers in the cloud,
Then days when it's radio silent. Our pen and paper are distant like the home built in the suburbs visited once for Christmas.
Yeah we seek for mojo in literally everything and when life hits you with a pause then...
Finding words is hard like saying ;I love you to a crush who vowed never to love again,
Like telling your parent I love you because you forgave them without them having to ask,
Like buying a birthday gift for an ex who told you, you're never good enough for him,
Like looking at yourself in the mirror and saying I Forgive You meaning every word coz as you go around gifting everyone handouts of Love and embrace the one you come back home to is YOU.

Yes the dilemma of a writer is not finding words or expression but
Stillness in life, that radio silence when all hell has broken loose.
The shell you cave in just numbing all the feels that bombard your normalcy.

Don't get me started on getting out the shell to find out everyone else moved on but You.
Coming back is brutal the pen and paper feels like an oasis in a dessert and you're not thirsty.

Not the victim mentality just a life lived out loud

#life #pen #paper #creatives #expression #voice

Mercy Jun 1

I Am Free

What's holding you back?
Rhetorically this one's always hard to answer
Not because it's hard to articulate who is master over you
But more of I'm I willing to break free.
Still pondering the echoes of faith moves mountains spoken to a slave that's been gifted freedom.

My pastor once taught that the stomach is a better slave than a master.
Slavery keeps you in a constant beat
The drumming don't change coz festivities means more work.

Harder is freedom.
So buying or being gifted freedom doesn't mean the chains are down.
You have to transform your mind to inform your zeal and drive to do and to will.
Easier said than done I know.

I honestly don't blame the pharisees hardness
They bought the slavery and it wrapped it's chains around their brains to work in an old system.

We have been given this gift of salvation.
Price paid fully no more condemnation
But trying to jump with weights will make you feel the jump isn't necessary it's work
Not realizing each jump is freedom lived and expressed
Only thing required is shading
Letting go of the familiar chains
Embrace freedom coz your master no longer has dominion or authority over you.

Yes redemption was for you.
Step in and step out
We Are Free!!!

Dispensation of Grace from Grave

#freedom #rebrand #free

Mercy May 23

Yet Again @niamornimo

Years ago I set down my pen and paper
Gained courage to do life
And well, didn't life happen.

I'm smiling while thoughts race
through my nervous system sending signals to my brain
It's happening!!!

Yeah I'm paralyzed
Can't move
The bed has me chained
Refusing to let me go
It understands.
The rivers of tears she's collected
Watching passion, giggles, prayer to mourning.
How could it let me go.

Spit hit the fun and the grace I was hanging onto waxed thin.
The scars are exposed
My mind feels bipolar coz the journey of grace has my heart
Constantly on the surgery table.

The cutting is necessary sure for to remove the tumor you must allow the blade to work it's magic.
Often not talked about the process to recovery.
Not enough talk around navigating with crutches.

Even the brilliant minds go through it.
I see the end and it brought me back to pen and paper.

I missed the freedom

#hellopoetry #backit

Mercy Jan 4

We're here now

If you'd have asked me how
I wouldn't have been able to tell you
But He touched me
The energy I used trying to prove a point
I redirected it to seeking Him
I surrender.

I couldn't keep going back to
He leaves the 99 for the 1
I needed to see draw near to me as I draw near to you

Yes He touched me
Soaking my face towel in
Regrets and repentance
I felt a warm embrace

Every year I crossover
It humbles me coz who I'm I
That He favors me this way
Filled with gratitude on my knees
For He didn't allow the suicide to go through
Didn't hold my past against me
And everyday renewing His mercies
What a privilege!

So in the deep...
I'll trade my fear for trust
Guilt and shame for gratitude
Regret and reproach for thanksgiving

I said once make sure when you look back you can do it with a smile
But I'm also allowing you to look
Back with a cry coz you've made it through.

The mountains before you are now so far behind you.
The darkness that was palpable now gone to be forgotten
Coz light don't negotiate with the dark.
Finally you can breathe out and breathe in fresh air.

Pull your head out the water.
You're safe.
We're here now!

This far He's Ebenezer

#faith #transformation #grace #mercy #process

Mercy Feb 2024

Fooled again

They say if you were fooled once it's not on you but when the cycle repeats itself then that's on you.
Guess I saw a silhouette of my knight in shining armor in just a mere man
I own it,
It should have been obvious though,
Can't you see it
You are a too good to be true commodity
Reason why people leave you on the shelf

I'm torn, what exactly I'm i supposed to become to be seen for who I really am.
Guess it's just another journal day.
God what messed up cycle do you keep putting me through,
What exactly am I missing

Maybe it's the prayer I make about him
The him I don't know
The him I need
The him who is final
For now I'm being tested and told to be open
But I'm not a register for anyone to sign up
I am selective and I'm not about to down size myself to fit in a smaller package.

All I have to offer now is this current me
I'm more of beauty and brains and that's fine by me.
Imma keep at it.
If the cycle will keep playing the same game then it's on.
This time I won't sell myself short or fit in the idea someone else has of me in their medulla.

I'll just have to watch and learn

Mercy Jan 2024

I think I'm in love.

I put my heart a way in a lock and key
Threw the key in a well
I never thought there was a force so strong
That could pull the key to
Open me up again
But he has managed.
L. O ...wow
Who would have thought,
The aloof beauty has some warmth left in her
I'm still in awe
Still scared but this time
I'm more scared of regret than jumping the cliff
I pray that the ground won't
Stretch it's lips this time to
Kiss my pretty face..
All I want is to fall in his arms,
Embrace his sweet heart as though it's mine.

Baby I don't just want to love you.
I want to hold your hand through and through
You make me feel like a small teenage girl

Mercy May 2022

Resistance

@niamornimo*
Life is a spectrum,
As by passage through a prism
It's said that the greatest war
We indulge in mostly
Is between our hearts and brain.
My question is why?
Why do two components staged to work in one anthropoid tend to differ so much?
Which one provides more clarity?
Its funny how hard it is to comprehend our thoughts in that direction.
It's sickening right?
I know...
But to get our balance
We'll have to resist.
Fight against ourselves
Our thoughts.
But the question we must ask is;
Can we do it?
Are we brave enough?

Some silence to a disturbed mind is key.

#poetry #hellopoetry #justthinkinh