Do you also have that one person in your life? That no matter how many months have passed, they still get the insides of your stomach flipping?
That you went through a long period of time thinking you're fine but when you talk to them just one more time, and all the feelings you had for them--the ones you swore you got over--came rushing back like waves? That when you ease back into a conversation with them and it's just like old times; you both got stupid smiles plastered on your faces as you enjoy each other's company?
And when they open their mouth to say I love you, you can't help but feel all fluttery inside. Wishing, hoping, that maybe this time they'll say it romantically instead of platonically.
But then a third person comes into view and it's their partner. And your smile freezes.
Cause oh no.
He was never mine to begin with. And he never will be.
And all those feelings go down the drain. Just like how you two parted before. That he could not love you the way you want him to.
And all this love you carry, well, you just keep carrying it. Hoping someone else will share it with you.
Just not today.
-m.b