the ***** , the ugly
the appalling rot
that maggots hide deep
within the deep dark spots

the dark, the wet
the creepy earth
the hideous fungi  
in waste , in foul air in  ....damp cold
places where worms live
and icy fingers grip hold
where dark demons possess
your very soul

the slimy excretions of toads
with mucus generously
shared   
on tiny tip feet walks
toads in curious stare

Sometimes life seem unfair, the struggles that the Good endure.
While it seems that the wicked has it made here on the earth.
Sometimes we are put into uncomfortable situations here.
When my days of smoking cigarettes were left in my past here.
I was tested big time it was like everything Spiritually came at me.
Like Christ hand was pulled away to see if I would go back.
If I was in uncomfortable situation that I would start smoking again.
But now after going on five years of being delivered from them.
I now know that God knew this but he allow me to go though this.
To reveal to me that I had pass the test, thank you Lord God.

My heart breaks for those whom can not see what time it is.
For you are at the door knocking, asking to come on in now.
You are pleading with us all including me, to stand up.
To allow you to use us to reach out to a dying world.
I fail at times to allow you to use me as well O Saving One.
The time is now to stand up and be used by you to reach out.
To reveal you the Living Savior to this here lost world.
We are all called by you every day to be use by you God.
Sometimes we allow you to use us and sometime we do not allow you.

lord , how can you understand me ?
how can you relate?
the pain i face almost everyday ?
lord, why me ...why do i only hate?..
if I'm under your guidance ,..
why can't i feel your embrace ?...


i walked the path you walked
and i understand your grief all too well
but remember your not alone
you have my guiding help

know that the things you faced were painful
and i wept that it hurt you so
but it was allowed to shape your heart
so into my likeness you'd grow

but lord!!... lord what if i fall
what if I'm not good enough for your call ??.
then i will pick you up and help you to walk
but ...but ...lord ... what if i fall again?
and fall again ??....
          
        then
                     i
                               will
                                                pick
           ­                                                 you
                                                                ­             up ...

when i was young
i thought i was ugly
i thought i was nothing
everyday was a shady grey
breathing in hopelessness
forever utterly dismayed ...

everyone loathed me
or so it seem
my family couldn't bear look
at me
i.. the lonely she


till i met HIM
and my whole life changed
LOVE ...love is his name
for it was because of love you came

water sparkled
clear like glass
water travelled to heal
the broken downcast
water flowing from head
down to toes
water beautiful
to everyone who beholds