Searching for the truth
the answer to my soul
what kind of man am I
when life takes it's toll?
I see in the distance
that my life hasn't been my life
always seeking pleasure
something to cure the pain inside
I'm not comfortable in my own skin
wondering who to please this time around
how much I want this to be the end
the water is too deep, I might drown
Living with the heartache
the pain inside won't cease
wondering what's at stake
Living with this disease
The darkness will not let go of me
and let me live my life
Hell is the only thing I can see
killing everything good from the inside

I'd give you my Heart.
And let you just hold it.
I'd give you my Soul.
But I already **Sold it.

Son, for you
I always think with my heart
Not with my brain

Darkness crossed the road
Held out his arms for me to hold
I jumped in and cried "You're my only friend"
When will this end?

We saw the light
Fled astray
"We can't go there" the darkness said
Stay away.

I can't see where I am going
I'm not positive of where I have been
Everything I have ever done, has been labeled as one word
Sin.

I can find a friend in you
Just show me the way
Even in the darkness
I will not pray.

"Where is everyone you need them"? I asked
"They were never really there"
Darkness told me the truth
I don't need you.

Side by side
Your elbow next to mine
6 inches apart
I don't like how You're right next to me.

Your eyes look at me
Looking at the periphery
How could this possibly be?

Awkward is one word to describe
our spontaneous encounter
And it made wonder
How much I used to Like You.

Your voice echoes in my ear
I can't seem to find the right words to say
Apologies are all I could mutter in front of your face.

6 inches apart
seems so close
but I felt so far from You.