what happened? i looked deep inside and found nothing.

how do i replace what has gone missing?

oldish poem (few months) that i just updated a lil. i hate making titles

over the summer i tried to write some poetry when i was feeling especially depressed

it's nice to get my feelings out and also i liked being able to look back on particularly rough moments

but i found a lot of the time i'd feel empty beforehand, it was an Unknown Emptiness... and once i wrote the poetry, i still felt the same emptiness but now I Knew to an extent WHY i was feeling so empty... and somehow, the knowledge was worse

i'm so young and i have so many incredible opportunities. it's absurd i feel so lost. but i am floating aimlessly...

i don't know.  i love to ramble.

got a big *** lump in my throat right now lol. i think i need a therapist

it was like eeny, meeny, miny, moe or whatever;
we knew what we wanted, even if we pretended we didn't.
so we'd pick the one (whether it was the flower with the even petals, or the item we'd start with) that we knew would give us the favorable outcome. we just like humoring ourselves.

also i couldn't think of a good title,, sorry!!!

i hope this makes as much sense as it does in my head

y'know, i've never actually been in love. am i doing a good job at pretending i have?

you'll never find someone, and that's the saddest part. sadder than the fact that i will probably never find someone either, because i've accepted it. you still believe someone like that is real.

quick write. just wanted to get something off my chest.